Chronicles In My Life

Beginning of Holidays

2007-05-14T14:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe i can officially quote today as the beginning of my school holidays, ok it sounds so kiddo right? Anyway, it doesnt really matter which language im saying, as long as is "holiday" im sure is an universal language that everyone understands!!! Haha

Ok i know is so lame!! Last saturaday was watching "Guess guess guess" the Taiwan variety show, that night theme was "Zai(1) Nan(1) guys" - which refers to people that can stay in their house or room for up to a month without going out. So they were really featuring these guys that night, oh my god, they r really wat i see people with more serious communication problem that i do, especially got 2 (number 1 & 3 contestants) have the worst issue. They were to be going thru a make over and to give a group of university girls to choose which is the best looking after make over. The 3rd contestant behave like a stubborn kid, kept insist he wants to trim his hair to meet the standard of "Mu Chu Tuo Zai" the famous Jap. actor. So he just kept insisting to make over like him as he thinks he has that "Qi zhi". Oh god, i tell u my "hair" just stand loh, cus i imagine myself talking in such a manner i think i rather kill myself, no offence because they are really hard core to either gaming online or doing things indoor.

As for the 1st contestant, he talks loudly like me, BUT as in suddenly surge of volume kind of, me is partially deaf i think, due to constant blasting of music, so kind da cant hear myself talking louding. Anyway, this 1st contestant do look like Wang li hom the ABC singer, so he think he looks like him too so the hostress was asking him u do look like an "ABC" so he said ya also look like "DEF" wow really so cold loh the jokes, worst than my cold joke loh!!! haha...

Out of 5 of them, except for the 3rd contestant, the rest looks much much good looking. Just suai loh they all after make over. So is about look when u are out there in the society, sadly but must learn to accept reality that this world "dai yen kan ren".

They all do have a clear distinction, is the way they walk is very odd. So the reason why im mentioning this particular episode is because i sometimes do feel that im like them, as in introvent n doesnt want to mix with the pple around me, i really rather be quiet and reserve ( but im sure most pple reading this will sure ly say out "Oh ya right" to my above comment) hahah but is true loh. :P

Oh ya, i had created a new blog with layout n skin and some other modifications. So i think i will start blogging over there soon.... Soi think my class mates i wil ltell them verbally.

Below are some information for pple that interested in knowing the new blog address:
1) Call me @ my mobile number , cus i think is fun telling u personally on my phone on my new address im sure pple wont understand it!! hahaha..
2) As for some who dnt want to let me know their number can call me using private number, then i call tell u verbally also, cus is fun i think telling the new blog address!!
3) Refer to any of the above.
4) Refer to number 3

So ya.... those need my number can post me and ask i put it here, my nubmer almost everyone has it i guess.. Take care everyone!!!

6th Winning

2007-05-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

Top 2 pic are the sweets i won today with a lousy prize!!! Im the first customer cus i woke up quite early then got bored... Went Tiong Bahru had Mac with time machine!!! Haha... Wanted to go for some Lan gaming but too early so i went back to CWP and be first customer hahhaa so wasted again but mostly last time le loh, cus jus try luck but try and try till sat there played... hahha...

Then the 3rd pic i called it "Pyramid of sweets" hahaha is so much sweets, especially the bottom container, so scary loh!! So i decided to give to the "Guan Ying" temple at bugis street. So can pray pray le then can give to pple and bless pple. Cant give to Orpanage as in long term it will mean the children will need to visit dentist more, so better to give to temple to re distribute, my mum will be my distributor!! haha...

Day when the war had just ended for the time being

2007-05-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

At last, i had passed the last battle for the time being that is. Evaluating the papers i taken for this semester, MAB is indeed the killer of all. Which happen to be the paper i took this morning, it was my worst fear. I think all my answers for calculation is incorrect. I really hope that they will give me sympathy marks of the 6 questions to 35 marks. Which is roughly 6marks per question. Im glad enough to pass this paper. My tests are Credit but only did i realise i had to pass this exam paper in order to include the 2 tests. Damn....!! Though knowing doesn't had helped me in anyway, i had tried to bomb everything i know, my fav. Flexible budget really turned out to be hellish, i made a mistake in my personal notes till now then i realised.

During the paper my gut instinct told me it was wrong but i trusted my notes. Too late for being compliance, overall i think i tried my best even at the period where im lost. So i hope i can pass. For net present value, i just recall the format and draft the format with those possible values. I know those value are incorrect, cus all of them are cash inflow!! hahaha.!! Given that situation, that is wat i produced. Rest questions i love the first question which i had foreesee pple to hate it!! Cus is all theories based for 15 marks!! Maybe i can get 13marks? so i left with 22 marks of 6 questions about 5 makrs per the other question?

Anyway, to be frank i think this paper is not that difficult YET i dnt know how to do. Yes, i know is contradicting, but i really think is not tat hard, but i still didnt get the right answer. Ok, let me put it this way, as compared to wat i had seen in previous papers which im blank on when i saw them only like the day b4 this paper is much easier. I was like at Lido there from 1pm to 830pm to recap my stuffs, which basically i only get to finish my analysis for the Topic 10 on NVP. For a moment, i m giving up and leave it to chances that it will not be out this year (which nv failed to be part of the question every semester) So i did wat i can only, to c wats the technical aspects and apply, which i had mentioned eariler that 1 of the question i wrote crap in it. Image my answer wrong i still able to provide my "report analysis" on the capital expenditure decison to accept or reject the decision to lease or purcahse the permises.

But i think i put it very clearly, "ACCORDING TO MY FINDINGS", since is positive so we will accept the decision, and i think i also didnt stated clearly on which decision, cus i not sure wats the decsion so i jus leave it open haha!! Basically i jus didnt follow blinding i think, I think tat NVP question need 2 set of NVP analysis, but because when i realised it, it was like too late to change it and moreover im strucked on Q3 for quite a bit. So i really had to rush thru all the remaining 3 questions.

Head still spins like hell, was suppose to go out tonight, but really not sure the rest, was like confirmed then suddenly everyone seems like dnt wanmna go. So in the end i think is going out ba. Im ok with everything, cus as long there isn't exams im glad im sttill alive. Now is jus time to change things in my life....and to reopen things to put on the "table" to resolve it. Time machine issue is the biggest of all, a decision has to be made b4 school reopens, but i think i told her le after her exams first ba. Think is more or less i know wats the result and i m beginning to change my mind set over, just tat i need to be strong.Apparently, i realised im quite weak this semester, my mental strength is unlike b4, which is why my productivity for my studies is sucks to the core!! But is over, is time to set aims to improve myself, i just love the feeling of day right after exams, is like quite similar the scene where u about to travel overseas for a tour, and on the way to Airport(ok tats for those seldom get to travel, tat is why i feel tat way).

So i will really treasure today, and the last time i went to Korea, i had mixed feelings and i totally got no feeling about the trip that i used to have. Looking forward for the next trip, which i think not near future. I still prefer to travel to Bangkok, and for a change i will wan to go taiwan. Bangkok is like my 2nd home, if i have money and retiring, maybe bangkok is where i wan to stay, but of course, in the course of life, pple changes, which im sure i would go somewhere that there is 4 seasons with someone i love (also if there is) and spent old age there. I wan a lake house or a built in 3 story house with a salt water fishing pond so i can fish everyday. After exams, is ok to dream and fantasize abit rright...!! hahah no harm right!! Better than fantasizing something "else"!! hahaha..

Anyway, yesterday i was stress till i first time eat burger without Chili sauce, when i have the capacity to do so, but because time is running out, i just eat and realise is not bad too. So just now for lunch i ate the same burger but with jus 1 pack of chili which im capable of at least 6 for a simple burger. Hahahah... no choice inherited all the wrong things!!! hahaha...
So my point is, sometimes is good to go out of the normal routine, and is like experience the other side of the horizon. Few times i had changed my inflexibilties and the results was desirable, including this. Fishing is my next thing i wanna do, either back to my usual fishing pond that need $$, or i m going to try out those reservoir which i seen many great results than when im paying!!! haha... Is about luck loh, only when the fish is hooked then is where skill comes in. My biggest catch was 8-9.5 KG Sea bass.... Damn it took me like 15-20mins to land tat fish!! Fishing is much much addictive that gambling, from my point of view that is. I just love fishing at fishing pond cus at least the rate of landing a catch is greater!! I last started the fishing back 1998 maybe or a year earlier, because i bought during tat time the well known fishing magazine "SEA" fisihng magazine, so roughly the time line is there. The "kick" of a fish biting and striking it.... wow.. i tell u it can be compared to ecstasy (although i nv taken a pill) but is just use to exaggrate that type of feeling....

The last time i went to the pond, i caught none paying $35 but happened tat day i forgot to pay!! whahaha but nothing to lose la cus i caught nothing and they didnt release the fish cus im the only "freak" there!! haha... Is like a kelong and kampong situated at Yishun and is very "wu-Lu" but i like the environment there, is like really a place for u to rejuvenate... And that pond is like not releasing fish as i heard from word-of-mouth and even that it soon will be reclaim back by govt. Hope my dad is just kidding, anyway i will sure visit there and to take some photos apparently i do have a clip of me with 1 of the fish, ok i upload with this!! haha...

Wow, think im gonna say by alot that my entry is so long!! Told u all le ma, after exams i got time in the world for 1 mth to do wat ever i want!!! haha.....Anyway, my complexion is getting worst for the terrible insonmia and lack of leisure and eating of Fast-food student meal!! Hai... so jia lat, "ren" already so average, im just getting more plain... should change my setting from "an average joe" to "plain joe" le loh!!!!

Think all my crappiness is finding its way thru already, just now ate KFC go crap with the auntie delivering the food to my table, happened that my number card is "6" so i flick over and told her my is "9" hahaha she was like hesitate before she realised i disturbing her!! So im not chi hong la, i crap to anyone even old ladies if they are frenly la!!! hahaha...

IM FREE for 1 month !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5th winning

2007-05-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

Think im really so bo leow and hai stressful perhaps?? Cant study can only know how to go relax man. Is drawing near my exams, and im still slacking like nobody business. Perhaps around me there are really alot of things flowing into my thoughts. Life is basically so bored, just now after dinner still cant study, then went to pasar malam to shop and bought a burger.. hai.. eat and eat is all i seems to know. Time machine told me she is facing the same thing too, last time, wat happens to her will eventually be passed to me, almost anything thing, is like wat she is suffering i wil lget it too :)

Anyway, is not tat point though. She just doesnt know wat she wants.... After exams i will change a new blog, for those tat i have no contact to if u wan maybe can tell me b4 i remove so i can "SOMEHOW" tell u the address discretely. Enhancing the blog at full blown!! hahaa..

Spider man 3 is nice, should go watched it everyone, but remember to watch the first 2 part. BTW, keep a look out at the Jazz bar at where MJ works, cus there is a small odd scene on the back ground which my fren and i had noticed which ernest said he didnt notice, so perhaps pple out there can comment whether had they saw wat i see:)

Anyway, im realyl tired and bored and jsut aimless as usual.. I think there are alot of missing pieces in it... My new blog, will have a "love story" attached to it!! cus i wanna write a story hahaha maybe after exams more free first.. then u all can c how was my time machine and i was!! hahah just a thoguht, but Blog add will change ba.. cus i need to enhance it... is like applying strategy for developing growth thru product expansion grid, this should be "product development" ? Since is offering modified/new product to the existing market!! hahaha... Think im mad already!!! :(

cya .... pple..

4th Time winning

2007-05-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

Today, suppose to mug, but in the end, end up at time zone playing the same old addictive sweet pushing machine!! haha.. cus got a couple played till like 3 steps to

jackpot, so i asked the pple around whether they wanna play since i thought they were gonna finished it to the finale, so the girl asked the tattoo bf to stop playing, so i took advantage of the situation loh. But im steady de loh, i asked those like watching them played, whether they wanna play. Since no one the i go and change $12 to play. But failed to win within that amt. So i topped up another $10, then i think another $3 i won this pic as the winnings.

So basically im so dead, really suppose to study but end up throwing money away... Just too sian i guess, hai.. the thought of MAB kills me, so i think i realyl cant make it. My threshold level for mugging is so low, had been unproductive for too many times. Think Wednesday i will just go catch Spiderman 3!!! Haha... Cant wait till 11th May... Anyway, tomorrow had to go work, im dried up spending on non-sensical things like "donating" to Singapore Pools as usual, and to Timezone... I must donate more la, for some "social-related" deeds, just like cause-related marketing!! haha....

So maybe during picking calls tat time then i blog again ba... yawn... currently life is just so dull.. but i do believe schooling is the best time to really "enjoy" life... Working is when u going do non-stop but if u do something u love, im sure is gonna be a good thing. I pray and wished i be doing something tat i love in future!!! hahaha Like loving my wife?? hahahah if there is only hahah cus i wan to be a bachelor!! jus saying only la :P

阿沁 - 我非常爱你

2007-04-29T01:27:00.000+08:00

我讨厌阴天的风，冰的那么刺通。只有你能够浮萍所有的寂寞. 昨天的风正在瞧落泪水流到里路口。我很不想让你找到离开的理由每夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶魔。
因为想但是旁边的人不希望。天空是开一道裂缝。
世界刻到我心中。
不想装作脆弱。也不想爱的懦弱。
其实我非常爱你不想失去你.
难道我没有权利.说我不愿意.
你给了他的吻.虽然却只有一吻.
可知道我渴望抓到你的心.
我知道他很爱你.你怕他伤心.
我每天假装开心.害怕你离去可不可以任性.求求你不要去.
总在我心里最后一句其实很爱你.
每夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶魔.因为想但是旁边的人不希望.
天空是开一道裂缝.世界搁到我心中.
不想装做脆弱.也不想爱的懦弱.其实我非常爱你.不想失去你.
难道我没有权利说我不愿意.
你给了他的吻.虽然只有一吻.
可你知道我多渴望抓住你的心.
我知道他很爱你.
你怕他伤心.我每天装做开心.就是怕你离去.
可不可以任性.求求你不要去.
藏在我心里.最后一句.其实很爱你.
可不可以任性.求求你不要去放在我心里.
最后一句很爱你

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TODAY IS A BAD DAY

2007-04-28T12:55:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS JUST A TERRIBLE BAD FOULED- TEMPER MOOD!!! SO ALL WILL BE IN CAPSSSSSSS... IM SUPER AGITATED, THIS WORLD LIFE IS SELFISH, IM OPENING UP A STORE SOON TO SELL FISH...

HAD TO TYPE A BIT FAST, SUPER DAMN PC GAVE ME PROBLEMS AGAIN, I TELL U 1 DAY, LIKE TODAY I GOING TAKE A HAMMER AND SMASH IT FLAT.... F**K !!!

SCOLDED MY DOG FOR WAKING ME UP, BANG DOORS BANG TABLES YEP.. IM SUPER UN HAPPY WITH THINGS..

THATS IT, NOW IM SCOLDING MY BLOG.... DAMN AM I MAD WITH THINGS!!!

Prestige - the movie

2007-04-26T19:01:00.000+08:00

After my "battle" today, was back home, hate and just hate the feeling on been in my room. Simply dislike at time when i had no time for relaxation. On the contrary, i do like my room very much, to the extend of loving it. Contradicting? Yes im becoming one each day, seem like becoming a girl each moment i contradict things. No hard feeling girls, i dnt mean all girls are contradicting species, matter of fact, they are more emotional than man. Ok this entry is not about Mars VS Venus for show.

Is actually about a DVD that i had bought, and was told by my sister that it was a bored movie, alot of talking and just all the negative comments. If not for today, that im bored to death i wouldn't have slot it into the DVD player and played it. True enough to my sister's critics, indeed the movie started off with a man talking. Then they put "[man 2]" talking, from its subtitles. Yes, but u really had to listen clearly to each and every word and with a little of observation thru the mid of the movie to make it out wat it was saying. I assured u for the gain in knowledge and insight of wat i call "wise man"? Perhaps, they cant be categorised as "wise" but this show get me into thinking alot of things. Actually, i dnt really know had it been making me think about things, but certainly, im totally affected by this movie. Is like my current displayed nick in MSN that says "Some pt of time in life,u realise beside,around,surrounding u is just vaccum.Worst of all, i found myself in this vacuum?!?" Thats how im feeling deep within me, is a vacuum. Maybe, this vacuum had always been there, im sure is there, cus this vacuum never filled up. Perhaps too "chim" for some to understand or is it too easy to decipher wat im trying say?? I think is so easy to decipher it right??

So this movie is just outstanding from my point of view that is. In short, is the story of 2 man in the 1870s-1890s or something like that. During that time, we all know it was the peak of threatre acting where plays are shown, which equivalent to today cinema. So these 2 young chap(early-thirties?) starring Hugh Jackman(better known as Wolverine in the X-Men) and Michael Caine with Scarlett Johansson. Both the men were magicians, initially was best of friends, worknig partners, and turn out to be killing each other using their magic but is not something like Harry Portter of course, that u says some kind of words like "ah bi ah bi bu" then u turned into a frog. Certainly no for this movie, is a very realistic movie. I was like thinking, David Copperfield might be cursing and swearing when he first saw this film. Basically, there isn't magic in this world as wat the film trying to bring across, is about "getting ur hands dirty" such as a bird trick that "disappear" into a table, end up back stage to be killed which is smashed with so many other bird at the back stage. Some other trick like the "catching bullet" that is just so dependant on the "volunter" who fires the gun. The best trick was actually the disappearing act, which was done by double. And they tried to outwit each other and battle to capture the market with each of their own which in the end killing alot peopl WHICH apparently are them selves. Sound odd?? No worries, apart from some occasion spelling mistakes in this entry, my meaning is clear from the words itself. Cant u all tell that this entry, the english is like kind of better?? For me, i think is slightly better at least.

So almost the end instead of magic, Hugh Jackman found a great man to invent a machine that really transports a person, maybe i should put as "transports" then using a double to do the disappearing act. This machine actually creates a clone of the other person tat uses this machine called "Telsa". So Hugh Jackman framed his that other buddy i was saying, whom they competing with each other. Eventually, Jackman successfully framed him, he was hung. Hugh Jackman thought he had the last laugh, think again....!!!

Remember the part where his "buddy" uses a double to do the disappearing act?? Yes, other 1 was actually his other counter part. Which towards the ending then the movie tell us and removed his disguise to be the exact same person. Confusing by now?? Ya is time to make a trip to ur nearest DVD shop to rent, beg, steal(i held no liabilty to my sentence - exemption clause hor everyone :P) ok sorry on my devivation to my crapiness. So the actual who was hung, was really hung but the other went to kill Jackman under his own theatre's storage room. Guess wat, yes, the end of the movie was he was killed by the "buddy" and i was saying earlier that each time he went into the "telsa" a clone of tat person will be created as a result. So beneath his theatre were all the clones bodies inside one of the containers.

Therefore, in the end, their mentor, was helping the "buddy" which indeed confusing but at least i understand why he did that.

I learnt that "magic" trick comes with 3 acts, 1st been the magician showing u something ordinary, 2ndly been the magician showing the ordinary thing disappear (remember the bird mentioned abv?) and lastly which is the name of the movie, the prestige is the last act in a magician performance which means showing the ordinary act disappear and to be RE-Appear!!!
Thats called prestige...

So thats sums up my summary, felt slightly better after my entry till now, yes i know is long, but only today i can write ahr, so if there is/are readers, maybe u divide it into a form of a collateral, which means different part to read? Anyway, i learnt tat from Comm. Law, under Collateral contracts which means different part of a contract, i love law but i cant do law. Hope i can do well to offset my other laspe in Accounting, to be honest, one cant be good at everything, though i always wish and tried to be best in everything, perhaps like i said many times as a pure virgo, im just an imperfect perfectionist... Maybe the fact i didnt do well for my MAB class tests amount to what i feeling, and mostly stil lbecause the fact that i still have 2 papers, and no joke, 1 of them is MAB. I try to study if my productivity level had been replenised some how or another. So cross my fingers hard tat i will be able to focus for the remaining 2 laps... AFter that i will work and work and work and also work to burn my time away, life is just like tat, i should realyl try hard to get used to it or not im gonna be compliance about it again.

Wish me luck for those that had finished their papers wor ;) i think i need alot of them to able to stay focus and still focus...and also focus... Didnt get to really have fun today, i dnt think i can also... Ok blog for so long, if i dnt ... jsut about to say, my pc showed me the warning to dc, damn it!! But is ok... just a poor computer...

C ya people!!! ;)

This is how i spend my preparation for Com. Law

2007-04-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

Apparently, this is my evident to show im slacking so much, this time round the sweet is not tat much, cus i was looking at some guy playing, he played till no $$ so he asked me play loh, who wont wanna play, still got few steps to Jackpot prize... So i was just unlucky, 4 steps took me $35 bucks or so to hit it!! Moreover, was the last credit in my card!! Anyway, im the Gold card holder ok, AT LEAST i have a gold card!!! hahaha...

So this was the pillow and the sweets arent tat much also, but is just the "kick" of pushing the sweets and sort of the "chance" to hit Jackpot that is addictive loh, but im already trying hard to resist the temptation but i wil lbe there without fail to "tempt" myself hahaha!!!

Pc having problem again

1 tiny battle over 3 major war zone to enter!!

2007-04-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Didnt sleep well ever since u all know which day, anyway now also dnt know why cant sleep well. Jus immune to those issue but perhaps im used to sleeping after 330, cus yesterday i tried to sleep at 1145, but end up im still tossing and turning for like till 330 at least?? Cus i know after 3am im still wide awake.

So i think so how it affected my Exam today, in 1 way of another. Didnt get to focus and really think i didnt perform as i think it is. Though the paper was quite similar to the past year papers, im not able to do as in i had done b4, cus i didnt practice.

Anyway, 25% of the war is over, still got a terrible proportion of battle to fight!! Hai...

:)

How can life really be better ?? Hahah i believe i wil lenjoy life 1 day with tat special someone!!! ;)

Time machine pre-finale

2007-04-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

I think westlife song "Fool Again" definately suits me. Anyway, I going to be grand finale soon i think. After exams i shall full swing to think for few days and c wat will the finale be, but is pretty obvious im too tired of it already. U said u just wan to have someone and right now u wanna focus on ur studies and work. I think is 80% crap, i just think is not right to come back and hurt me though u had no ill intention. I understand ur inner world so well i knew each time after u contacted me and tell me how much u misses me, is purely because u do, yes i do understand tat and perhaps that are other contributory reasons which both of us know can already. Cus i m not used to saying too unkind words, im a saint the previous life perhaps.. :P

Anyway, u said dnt pity u and said i had moved on, if only wat u said is true, i wouldnnt be entering this entry, lucky u wont c this blog too, cus u dnt even have my address!! If i had moved on i wouldnt even bother about u and had blocked u on msn wouldnt had deliberately left a loop hole for ya, so yes im still hoping perhaps... Pity u?? I dnt even have the chacne to pity myself, but on contrary, i cant indulge in self-pity!! Must always remind myself... !!

Exam time always like tat, but this time i choose to ask those silly questions of answer tat i long know, just asked so tat she wont feel tat if i pop the question after exam she think during exams i make use of her since stressful as she claim, so i rather show her my sincerity tat i asked her those questions 2 days b4 first paper.

Tank- Fei ni mo shu is the song she let me hear, put to my heart and my ear last sat... But this song next time play and i hear it will like in the time machine portal like tat, playing this music... hahaha!!!

U said u got no one, actually i think Jian bing ur long time admirer or even more than tat is good to u too, so to be frank u r a very lucky girl i had long ago told ya about tat... Just tat u dnt c the good thing in front of u (dnt reallu mean me) as in alot more, u dnt treasure wat u had placed in front of u... So when i need someone u r nv there for me, even when i told u in sms, ur replies nv seem wat i had msg, just reflect how much i stand..... hai...

But rest assure, this entry is just to vent my inner frustration, so the "contract" is repudiated by frustration, no remedies are required. Hahah pardon me, i was like reading law and i only recall this. So tomorrow must wake up and try read my econ!!!

WO HUI "stand" up.... i will and i must!!! Perhaps, ever since she contacted me back, i cant stand at home to study, i remember the day when i came back after class which the night i had chatted and i went class till so shaggy tat some jus asked me why i like tat tat day, i remember im like just too tired tat i jus answered i dnt care about it, which i think got no link to their question. Ya so tat was the nite she contacted me!! Hahaha... Is ok la, i always learnt mistakessss very slow... cus human are always in a state of denial... so im no indifferent to other human...

So Slowly ba, after exams got more time to divert my attention when i really go find next course of actions, though is really obvious wat i can do already... :)

Kan Ba Tee

On Verge of breaking down - Edward's Curve??

2007-04-18T16:10:00.000+08:00

I no longer can take it, why suddenly today im just not in any mood to study. Wat i had studied cant be remembered... How come??!!?? I really cant take it anymore, Quitting is not really an option now. Wat can i do?? I m really clueless wat else i can do.. i sat down after lunch, realised i forgot wat i studied, tried to look thru pass year papers, i dnt understand wat the questions asking...

Then i jsut cant reallysit there, so i walk around, head pain subsided, when my mind starts to think about my papers, i head pain already....

Now is 420pm, i had done nothing but compliance.... wanna go airport but wat if there i couldnt study too?? then wats next?? Go walk to runway and sit there to study?? hai...
3 days were like tat last week. this week if 3 days like tat.. i might as well walk to Admin find Rohana to quit my studies.... and c wat my F**king mind wants!!! Or my heart wants!!! Im sick of tired of my self now!!! Study dnt study... work i cant at the moment, and wat can i work then? There isn't any options. Sem 1 i still like think if really fail i dnt study, but everryone around me tat is out of school are coming back and planning too, even those earning well. So wat tat implies? Wats the pt of me going out to work only planning to come back lateR? Wats the bloody point right? So might asa well work for it, but really not i dnt, im trying my best but somehow there is like a MENTAL BLOCK!! Preventing me to focus, i think lately my mind strength is too weak, not sure why also....

Mental Block.... Mentally blocked...Any medication? Nose bloack there is Clarinase, Throat Block got Sweatsils.... even toilet block got the stupid tools to push the water clear...!!

Mental block...?!?! Where can i really go and study...?? Maybe is more on how can i release my mental destress...Perhaps i need to give my self a break? but my frens r all so hardworking, im slacking like shit!!! So wats there to break right??

Now my blog entry are to Screw myself up!!!

Third Entry of a day...

2007-04-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

This is the 3rd entry of the day, just show how hard working am i. 10/ 9 frens are studying. Wat am i doing? Blogging, changing Msn nick and complaining to myself and though time is ticking, my head is ticking like the clock.... left, right , left, right.... Of course i remember wat i said, i wanna stand up again... Call myself a man if i dnt even try harder to savage my own life?? Life can be tough which im always been going thru... but this time round is kind of diff, perhaps, dnt know. Just tat im too tired lately.... And also because im too compliance....

still got 30mins to 12, though i failed to study after my 1st blog entry. Went to the park to try sort out things. Tomorrow after class i shall go to Vivo city, to the American something cafe to try study.. My fren from SMU is having her last paper... so good, but im sure she went thru as much as i do, and better productive than i do...The cafe is kind of like coffee bean.. think is at lvl 2, facing sentosa, and there are 2 set of swings to sit on!! and im aiming for that!!!!! Is so cozy!! if cant study then f**k care and go watch movie!!!

Have a good night rrest soon, provided i can even dozed off......Just must learn to c things change cus changing is bit & pieces of life

Life Within Life as it it.....

2007-04-11T21:25:00.000+08:00

Life is so ironic at many times. And life itself really do have a life within
it.just like an economic system.there are system in place to keep the economics
run smoothly.then lets life within life to be tat in place system, lets call in
life sys. Life sys is a cycle,something like karma.wat goes around do come
around. Not sure for you but is for me absolutely... Somehow it will gets you..
So karma is catching up with me at the worst time of all.tats during exams
period.perhap is this reason tat was bothering me and hindering me apart from
the fact tat i m lazy..on the bright side i had foresee this just when
everything starts..so now is approaching the end just as i had predicted
Is only tat now i should just relax for a night and fight a more important war
against the school of examination department of rmit.to me nothing is as
important as my studies.however i m sure we are humans too.we can be emotional
at times.moreover my star sign is virgo. Virgos are emotional,devotee,passionate
and love to love and be loved.fortunate for others perhaps not really for me.as
in much advantagous for the person tat is who him.haha.cause for him,it simply
means they are as fragile as glass..

Now i m sitting in a park feeding the mosquitoes and just after a call.then these inspirational thoughts of mine just
came out.and i composed thru my Hp and sent via my email..tomorrow will be a
good day.it will and it must be a better day than today.lets get bad things
passed. In any case, tough time dont last, tough man last... I m midst of both
;-)

Current Stop: "Depression"

2007-04-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

Think im in a state of depression... Who can help me?? Guess only i can help myself out, but i had been trying all ways to assist myself but serious im not able to at all at the moment. I not sure why is it so... usually i can but now things get a better of me....Im overwhelm....

Everyone is studying like mad but like i said, i cant i cant i jsut cant..... is like im cursed like tat... How come ahr?? ...

Im struck online for 2 hours yet got nothing to do jsut complaining to my blog... $#%@#$!... and btw i restarted like 5 times... hai... i had enough dnt online le la.. .even stupid pc bully me!! hahahah hai... DAMN!!!

Sometime is so pathetic when u realise u look around u there isnt anything.... ... ... Maybe i got too used to thing in the past... now is a window period tat i had to go thru.... Nothing help, im been in my room, typing this entry blasting my music, and the same old music again and again...
for goodness sake, is not productive at all...!!

What the hell is going on... i cant let this go on... TODAY I GONNA LET IT BE THE LAST TIME im giving tat happen!! TOMORROW IM GOING TO BUCK the HELL up... i cant be an arse and wait things to happen. As in waiting for the notes to be downloaded into my mind...... if im going be compliance further, im digging my own grave... ... Maybe even scraping my tombstone by sat if im still sitting here complain and complain... .. and compliance about all the things... I need my motivation... where is it!!! think im mad but im serious.,.. im going try again... and again... and again....!!!!

But at least i know....something.... and will decide... since certain things love to MIA... jsut go ahead and MIA... im prepare.. for now... i wil get use to it....

Wish me luck everyone... i will break the curse tonight@!!!

This is wat i did today!!! "How Productive"

2007-04-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

Ladies & Gentleman, this are the "SWEETS & Jackpot" prize i won today.... !!! The heart shape, is i extra go and make out one, hahaha i love heart shape!! hahaha... So this wat i did after i woke up, went causeway point, so stress out without doing anything.

So i spent officially $55 on wat u see above, but only $32 is my money, the extra $23 are cus i had reached a certain quota that i entitled for !!!

Im attracted by the jackpot feeling la, is addictive. But i still can control somehow. As this was only the 2nd time i played this. This time was out of my expectation that i had to spend so much for jsut few levels to Jackpot.

Therefore, in the end i got these sweets and towel dnt know for wat alraedy. Maybe give my niece ba... she's only in K2!! Looks like Ah Ya too wor!! hahaha

I wonder why am i so distract, my saturated point seem drop to a level that only 1 to 2 hours then thats it already. So the rest of 22 hours, im like complaining this and tat... ok my pc giving me the STUPID IDOIOTIC sign hai....

Thats all perhaps.... for this entry.

Im such a foolish person!!!

2007-04-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

I was like typing my blog for dnt know how long, so i didnt realise my leg was cramp, so i was like trying to walk without feeling numbness but just unable to control my feet down wards, so was trying to put my feet flat down so i can walk but i kept trying till i sprained my leg only did i realise my leg was numb... so hai.. now my leg is kind of swelling a bit hope it will subside by tomorrow.

Was online, then saw someone online, as expected, tat person went "offline" i guess hahaha...!!! hahahah by chance or conicidence? hahaha... So much meh, conincidence in life?? Haha... Anyway, think i care?? hahaha... Though i care but doesnt really matter, cus everything has been destroyed!!! hahaha... Just disguest me thats all..... It just further show nothing in this world can be trusted but myself....!!!! I realised not only i dislike the person tat so chi hong every night..... tat will... u konw... My good Stm pal Arun also dislike him!!! So lucky this prove tat im kind still normal, i still wil ldislike pple...

Talking about dislike i realise is time to put a list who i dislike in my frenster... hahah..
I dislike:

HypoCITES
Fakers
Liers
Those tat break promises(still got cheek to say promises are meant to be broken 7 yrs ago)
Pple tat break pple heart
Bossy pple
2 faced person.
F**king Chi Hong Kias
Back-stabbers
Attitude pple
(PS: Abv are not in sequence, CUS ALL Are FIRST in the LIST)

Damn Am i PISSED now!!!! (only 1 thing can make me happy, but tat nv will happen at the moment!!!) hjahaha

For those that doesnt know wat the abv paragraph is, is ok just ignore it hahaha my texts are so powerful tat only the intended person knows is for tat person ;). Today then i realise that... Anything, jsut so sian loh...!!! Again i feel like going over to Airport, book a ticket and fly to somewhere, study on the flight and come back brand new!!! can i find some sponsor?? Any kind soul?? Doubt so!! Unless i wear Skirt!!! Damn Chi hongs kias man this world.

Damn, i think im like unstable and indulge in self pity for a day...!! Shall sleep early... Pc jsu show me the damn msg that is gonna DC me!! ... WTH

Unproductive Day

2007-04-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

For 1 week, nothing much had done but contradicting myself and working till friday 12 am where my leave officially starts. . . . . . Many things went thru my mind, guess it just drain off my energy and been so much unfocus, but is ok, cus everything is obvious that my myopia has come true and jsut as my 8th sense had WARNED me... My 8th sense is much better than the Tsunami Warning system loh... Asean should pay me billions of $$ just to stand near the shore, so i can fish whole day and predict the possible tsunami. Anyway, wats the probability of it happening again. Maybe by time is here i would be running away with the $$ to Maldive island and camp there with all the $$ and live like a king with many wifes.... !!!

Ok thats way too far to even imagine hahaha....Think im suffering from illusionary visionarist due to stress in short....I think SAM MI , our MCE Lecturer he is really correct, on the part where he said, only 1 "dirty" word stop us from HD or at least score well. YES TAT "dirty" word LAZY applies to me, i should modified it to add LAZY to "PLAIN LAZY"!!! Thats wat stopping me i guess.... And i think there's no cure for that, is an illness inherit from many B.C before.

Anyway, went to catch a movie "Reaping" at CWP yesterday night@940 pm. Though officially wasn't alone because of the fact my family of 2 couples bought the ticket early in the morning without me, but me was like so bored so went to bought the ticket 5 mins b4 the show starts, and cathay@CWP should really REVAMP their counters. Is just not efficient and customer value, is pretty much an example of looking into cost saving rather than creating cust value!!! They combine the selling of tickets and food together into same channel!! I understand from a company point of view they are cost effective as this will save space and rent the other part to the Banquet Food court. But twice i went there, im pissed with the service. Maybe the reason tat im working in svc line affect my perception and my perceive cust. value differently from others.

In any case, my sis & hubby sat together with my dad & mum in the comforty couple sit while i sit with at the corner!! hahaha.... but strangely, the sits infront of them was empty so i moved back to their front. However, to me is ok also, im ok with watching alone, is nothing wrong with it but some pple just find it like they rather kill them selves if tat ever happens... At times, i just like to talk about the movie during the movive but of coruse not affecting the other patrons. If the 1 beside me is not those tat talk i will jsut "zip" my mouth!! hahaha...

Is 923pm now!! Am so lazy and bored.... And i just cant be bothered about anything... tats is happening.... cus i already forsee this coming and is really not my lost in a way or another. Cus just as when im putting in the effort, things took a turn. hahaha But is no turning back now CUS MY THRESHOLD level is already at the minimum, i also realise im a ultimately demanding person and quite high expectation but partly due to my perfection perception. Im pretty much a virgo!!!

I realised i love my criteria. So if u fit my criteriasssss and my criteria is like only a few able to meet up with that i will choose to love and care like a princesses!!! hahaha.... So i msut search for my princess!!! hahaaha... But hor i think all the princess run leow!!! hahaha.. Is hard to really find some one u love and vice versa, so anyone out there who is in this perfect senario of both loving each other from bottom of the heart, god blessed u, treasure the r/s, if u love each other truefully, ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING CAN work out for sure. SO DNT EVER GIVE UP!!!!

To those tat had found each other.... Al lthe best...... Nothing is there for u, dnt ever take things for granted....!! Learning from past experience is wat i had learnt.... :) but i still make the mistake at times, this show just how difficult can learning process be!!! hahaha All the best!!!

Positive day Cum Mad-dy Day

2007-04-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

Today was a great and mad day, i just keep talking to myself hahaha.... think im too stress, only manage to study 1 topic, and i wonder wat am im mad about too. Around, evening went opposite my house to buy 4D, then was raining heavily, so i shop abit, and bought a Sammi Best songs Cd, let me c.... when was the last time i bought a cd. Is actually Guang Liang's "Tong Hua" & Landy's Wo li bu kai ta". Thats not the most crazy thing, the worst was i went to HMV and bought a Cd, imported version type from japan for $50!! Damn!! That was mad.... It was "fixing a broken heart" by indecent obsession....!! Perhaps im hoping to fix my broken heart tat day?? But im sure it didnt, cus if it ever fixed my broken heart, it will break it again!!! Because it cause me $50!!!

Anyway, thats me in the past, very irrational and follow my heart to do thing, act of impulse. Though i m still quite a person tat follow my heart even till this moment, perhaps just slightly more rationale as i grow older. Which is why there is this saying, " The older is always wiser"

Damn pc keep giving me problem, i m going throw away my pc 1 day if it continue to pissed me off!!! $#@$!@#$!%$#@%@#$&^%@$#$!@!#%$%%^

HAPPY EASTER DAY!!!!!

2007-04-06T20:49:00.001+08:00

hahaha is Happy Easter Day instead!!! whahahaha!!!

HAPPY ESTER DAY!!!!!

2007-04-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Ester Day to everyone, and i dedicated a song to my classmates today via Yes 933!! Im sure no one heard it!!! Anyway, just dedicate for fun though... too bored perhaps...!!

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I think everything is no longer the same, i think is about time ....... U no longer the same person after u switches job, but doesnt matter, like i said i wont bother about anything from tat day onwards. So just go ahead do wat u do ba.... k ? i wont say again le... hehehe....

Freeeeeeee...!! hahahaha.. too stress i think hahahah yawn!!!

Day at work....

2007-04-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing much today, busy working, very tired as usual. Manage to revamp a bit on my site. Like add on a pic and change the layout and make it more "clean" and neat.

Yawn.....!!! still got another hour to go!!! Im tired and i ate alot today at mac!!! Breakfast cum Lunch, so im really getting fat... Anyway, that wasn't my record of meal in mac, my personal record was 3 meal from mac from morning till night, and guess wat after that i got ulcers & sore throat. Those were the days where i can study whole day there for my History o level exam. Now i dnt have the energy at all... talking bout that im...

T...I...R...E...DDDDDD

T...I...R...E...DDDDDD

T...I...R...E...DDDDDD

T...I...R...E...DDDDDD

T...I...R...E...DDDDDD

Now i know why...

2007-04-03T17:04:00.000+08:00

Remember when u r young, ur parents always asked you to be a doctor or something like tat... Now i now why, i should have been at least a vet. So wat trigger my thought today was simple, i went to dental this afternoon it cost me $100. the last visited was $58, the first visit was $40.... so i still got 1 more session hopefully.And certainly i hope the charges are not charged base on incrementation....

Still not able study, im too tired everyday, so tired working and by time i reached home i just not able study at all. In any case, im dead, is 20days and i had not touch anything... should i blame the stm?? hahhaa...

Today i then know STM also = short term memory hahaha...

Anyway, still got 56 mins for me to go home, i had to go 515 to eat later already... no choice, fat then fat hack care leow!!!

Pray for me everyone that i study!!!! :(

Cya....everyone!!!

How Vurgarities can tarnish ones' image & Impression

2007-04-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

Looks can really be deceiving..... & as the topic says, when u hear vurgarities been utter and from 3rd party pt of view is really 2 different issue. While working today, i over heard a "lady-like" office type of girl not bad looking to be consider utter a very rough vurgarities over then phone. Is like Ah lian like tat, so not appropriate at all, she of coruse smokes as well and over heard her saying clubbing plan like "powerhouse ahr!!" hahaha ok now allow me to explain why i over heard, although to lijia and some i always evasdrop their conversation,, but was only disturbing everytime. So i overheard her because my table at singtel has a "private" fixed line attached, so pple will come over to make calls, so this explain everything right??

Thats why i always try to refrain myself from swearing, cus swearing really sound so terrible and jus reflect wat type of person u are. To many i look like ah beng but hor i not at all loh!!! hahaha .... Anyway, alot still think i look like malaysian loh, i wonder is tat suppose to be a compliment or otherwise.

I shall try harder to swear and i also intend to talk lesser and lesser cus dnt wanan talk alot these days, not sure why also hahaha lets c im able to achieve it anot!!! hahaha

Just another day.....

2007-04-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

Today, i think i didnt bring "eddie" out of my room!! Cus is edward who went to school. Seem to everyone im pulling a long face and giving attitude!!! Me not really an attitude type of person, i dnt really throw tantrum to pple around me for no reason. Im those type rather keep things to myself for like 90% of the things, but had learnt to release about 10% of things which is ok. The worst thing i had let out is ..... guess something everyone know already, which i totally regretted on it hahaha cus rumours spread like wild fire, this spreading leads to of coruse negative results. In any case, i be responsible and not bother much about it since is my fault in the first place to say out that "secret"

Hahaha.... So today just not in a better mood?? Lately im jsut like tat, drifting and sort of things and marketing assignment facing last min emergency yet im not able to help at all also amount to that as well. Moreover, time is really running out and i had not been feeling well the last few days as well. Not mentioning problems from work that they disapproved my study leave, somemore is UNPAID LEAVE....!!! A big organisation yet cant allow that flexibility, when they need staff previously we are able to apply for the leave. If is not because i need to have some earnings to survive my social life , i would have quit already. So not had to bite my teeth and work and cross finger i have alot of energy to focus on my studies.... which i already losing my motivation to focus.

So enough of all these nothing new stuff about myself....!!! Anyway, sat went gathering in Double O, wasn't really very nice but at least i realise retro got alot of songs i like, so retro & slight R&B is my cup of tea. However, i dnt really like clubbing, i jsut prefer fishing than clubbing though is kind of 2 diff. items without linkage but ya i still prefer fishing.

As for Mahjong, i will quit, gambling is not good for one person, not healthy as well, so i will try hard to quit.

Anyway, i check the CL additional lessons, can anyone tell me wats the actual dates? cus it seems there is conflicting info available on the portal against wat was given today during lesson. Thanks...

Portal Info:
There will be an additional lecture for Commercial Law, details are as follows:
Monday, 9 April 07, 10.00am - 1.00pm, LT 3.23

Info Given Today:
12 April 07
&
13 April 07
Thursday, 12 April 07, 10.00am - 1.00pm. LT 4.24

Piling up of "problems"

2007-03-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

Issues just seem to be piling up 1 after another. This time im forced to make a decision, either to quit or risk opportunity cost of results. So obviously my study comes b4 my work, but because partly my other counterparts that is still studying in Singtel is applying for 1mth plus of leave, which rise the alarm for management. That results in the decision to be make.Things arent getting better but there comes another!! Haha... all my mind has is just worries n worries over my exams. Till now i had not prepare for it at all, urgency is there but im helpless. Tomorrow still got gathering to attend at Double O, just right when i needed to release myself!! So i shall gather my mood to drink tomorrow!! Will i be drank? hahaha.... i hope the day i get drunk, it must really be a terrible thing, cus til ln ow had not really got drunk, drank alot yes, but im still sober and can recall things...

Think we had completed our marketing assignment, which i dnt really wish to touch assignment anymore. Just cross our fingers that marketing would not be tat tough...Today is friday night, got really no mood to go anywhere, was at Bugis walking about, with my music of coruse while waiting for my family to reach golden mile then i make my way over there for the steam boat which seems popular and is always pack.
Last time when i was like during poly years i thought truely love 1 person then can already. But as time passes, i realise is not really the case, i realise r/s is getting more realistic n materialistic as well. Such as for example, at my age, going dutch is not really the case and for me i usually wont let my other half pay things (if im still got the cash) unless she insisted. Anyway thats actually the case since i first got into my first love in 1999/2000. Hence, right now i dnt think i m suitable to have another half or even have the right to date, or even after any person. For couple of reasons perhaps, 1 of those tat is related to wat i jsut said, is that im not financially "enough" at all, other would be quite personal for now. And of course time machine is like 15% of the reason? hehehe... but im slowlying getting better jsu occasionally thoughts flow back when im in similar situations.

Feel like doing many things like business now, got an idea and is nothing new but im quite confident about it however, just lack of the funds to proceed on, so is jsut some thoughts, wait till i graduate then say ba with all my knowledge im sure i be a all rounded for my business but gonna work for 5 years and earn alot to start up tat.....

One fine day i think im gonna have heart attack when im in school.... hahaha.... At certain time my heart will beat abnormally!! hahaha ..... Each time is the same reason!! But shall keep mum about the reason.... Nothing much though, just some kiddo stuff perhaps?? hahaha... But i wonder when was the last time i had those "abnormal" heart beat. Anyway, like i said, im in no position to think about other less important things then earning some bucks and trying to pass my papers.

Ok back to the topic for today.... Exams itself is less than 3weeks that falls on thje 23rd April, but just now got a terrible news and spoiled every thing, My teamleader called and told me the management cant approve my leave, only 1 week prior to exams then most, the y claim wat contract mention!! ANYWAY, better ask them dnt use contract this thing and talk to me!! hahaha CUS I KNOW CONTRACT LAW leow hao bu hao... hahaha!!! Though i dnt remember any terms on that most to most parol agreements but according to parol act, written agreement overwrites oral agreement. However, no pt agruing these things right, rather solve things, so i really not sure how, maybe tomorrow whiole on the way to town then i try to think of a counter-offer such as working 3 hours a day and sort of or to just jeopordise my papers which i guess i wont... but again the questions of going broke again haunt me again!!!!

Hai.. is 930pm on a friday night, at home i just cant do anything productive!!! :( . I believe a chinese saying (pls translate to chinese then u know leow) , the saying goes like this " boat reaching bridge head, automatic straight" hahahaha

My Marketing Poster!!

2007-03-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

My first poster that my friend's Girlfriend created for our marketing assignment that they use me as the "model"

Hahaha....!!! So this 2 posters are done for the Before/After effects.

Im also IT student b4 yet i doesn't know how to do all this!! hahaha But im sure i got the basic which i can just apply according when sitaution arises.

Going class soon!!!! So "." i typed 2 entries today le ahr!! hahaa...

Running out of time now.....

2007-03-29T11:43:00.000+08:00

Certain things i shall just keep mum perhaps.... Especially confidential things and sort, unless everyone would understand the situation completely. Now i able to find some time to blog, im sure alot pple had started revising but im still strugglnig with watever things that is happening and doing my marketing assignment.

Anyway, after Tuesday work, i reached home feeling just too tired and restless yet dnt wish to sleep, cause there is some issues that is arising, nothing emotional though. So i watched a my DVDs show, i watch the award winning show - "Fu Zhi" by Aaron Kwok that was film in malaysia. No wonder my neighbour jesmine bought it la cus IS RELATED TO MALAYSIA!!!! hahahaha....

The show was really a great 1....!! Jsut too touching, it somehow talking about me like tat!!! After watching i felt so lousy like tat, tats quite like me in the film, helpless n nothing i can do to prevent the "live-in" gf of Aaron to leave him. Eventually, she purposely find a stomach pain drugs to make herself keep going to the ladies while Aaron who tried to do something for her by buying her a ticket to a cruise to redeem himself. But tats HOW the girl did, use the chance and ran off with another guy!!! Is jsut so materialistic, but FOR THE SHOW i understand why she did that. So is correct perhaps, there isn't really "ai qing bai mian bao" Which means living on love and minimum material involved. Tat was in the past i guess, this world had changed quite awhile ago. 5Cs is surely the minimum, x-Cs where x is unlimited is the maximum. Anyway, the movie certainly deserve the award. Outstanding storyline which reflect on the realistic world and sad world.

The show ends off brillantly as well.... where the son went back after he was out of orphanage, btw he was in orphanage because aaron asked him to steal, unfortunately he was caught as a result and beaten badly but aaron ran away because police is coming.

So is just very touching and "xing suan - heart sour(direct translation)".

Then yesterday(wednesday) was at shaw house whole day from 3 till 830 then eventually went to watch movie - Bean Holiday. Seriously, i dnt think is funny, i manage to STRUGGLE with a laugh for 2 scene??!? But theres alot of philippino(doesnt mean maids) laughing so loud!! I assume because they laughed too much that i dnt think the show is funny anymore....!! During weekday at Shaw lido 1 with so little pple is so nice!! !! hahaha....

So the show is jsut aren't that funny, therefore dnt anticipate too much of funny scene so it may just make u laugh slightly more if u have lesser hope!!!

FU ZHI grading ----- "7.5/ 10"
Bean Holidays ------"2/10"

VERY GOOD PIECE TO READ AND SHARE

2007-03-27T17:09:00.000+08:00

.There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying."Just take care of my eyes dear." This is how human brain changes when the status changed.Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A GiftToday before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion. Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet. And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us are without wrong doings. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and be thankful you're alive and still around.Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, And fulfill it.

Wo Hao Lei Ni Zhi Dao ma?!?!?

2007-03-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

Im really very tired....n hope tomorrow wil lbe a better day!! hahah.. .although handed in my CL assignment that doesnt really make me feel better, maybe im just really not prepared for exams that is coming. Theres no time already yet im like still here working... Anyway i didnt give a conclusion for my question 2 of CL hahaha

Yawn still got 45 mins!! hehe b4 i can go back!!! hahaha

Someone came over my desk tell me not to blog too long whaha so i use this excuse to stop here ba!!! :P

Waste of time!!

2007-03-25T18:27:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the submission, i wasted my sat donig nothing on the assignment, and right now im working, just feel very tired suddenly, lost my driving force somehow. Feel very tried n still tired, when im tired things jsut start to flow thru my mind.

Anyway, still got 2 hours b4 i can go man!!! tats liek 10hrs to me!! hahaha.. When i reached home then i start to rush for my assignment again.

Sometimes i really realise why do i care or bother so much on things that i shouldn't be at all but at least now somehow i know the reason why am i feel dejected n lack of motivation. My English is already like this, there is time when i feel im improving but sadly this very day my english is like getting worst again man!! hai...So i wonder how am i going to write my q 2...!! at least i feel my q1 is better... think lectureer will certainly think tats 2 person writing the CL assignment!!

Just now went i came out for work was so hungry that i ate 2 mc chicken!! hahah now i feeling hungry again!! Puberty for me!? if so tats good!! hahaha but i try not to eat so much...

Instead of donig my assignment which i brought here to do, im blogging here, but i think i need to focus when im donig the assignment so now jsut focus on other unimportant things!!!

So i hope my source of energy will be round the corner so to boost myself !!! hahah but i doubt so on that cus i dnt feel it!! hahahah!!

Think im too tired n starting to utter rubbish again!!!

Shall jsut stop here.. still got 1.5 hrs!!! hahahah

Beer Belly!!

2007-03-23T16:45:00.000+08:00

Cant imagine the Staff Function of Singtel 2007 is such a big bash!! It was the first time singtel organised outside the traditional setting of 8 course dining. So should i be considered lucky? At a moment i really didnt want to go because im lazy and just didnt like the idea of socialising with pple cus i will just be sitting there like a stone.

Another surprise of the night was, actually singtel is so generous in their prizes!! You cant imagaine!!!! lets just talked about the prizes between 140th to 71st, is already Bluetooth for 1 of my team mate. then the 10 th prize is a Sony bravio plasma TV set worth $1200!!! 9th to 7th prizes are Apple Note book!!! + up to $200 Tunk Lok dining vounchers!! 1st prize is $2800 Chan Brothers travel vounchers & some 800 tung lok dining vounchers!!! Aren't those prizes jsut attractive!!!

Unfortunately yet within my presumption, i wont get near my numbers called!!! those top 10th prizes are only 1 started with 1 the rest of started with 0. Obviously mine started as 1!!! hai... So disappointed....

I went with an empty stomach but sadly i left with almost an empty stomach with lots of fluids only. Btw there were quite a few celebrities performance, 1 from britain and our none other Singapore Idol "SLY" was there singing my fav song in clubs... "Its my life" !!! The rest im not sure is who already.

1626 really got no real good looking babe as most had left already. But i cant believe there were some tat is not bad from other departments. Also alot "Lao Chio" hahaha... anyway tats not the point. Should had asked more of my frens to attend since they didnt really checked on the invitations. So i was like there with some other team mates and Saw kiro there too so mingle with those i know better.

So i drank so much beer since they asked me take take take yet dnt wanna drink so i drank them up loh... till i head damn pain and belly waist line gonna increase again!! As a result i miss my lesson and assignment meeting. So sorry group mates!!! i just over slept totally!!

Anyway i thnink the tag board is having some problems again!! hai.....can always just leave me a note of comment thanks!!

People Changes

2007-03-22T12:56:00.000+08:00

I think my "8th" sense is really working well... Long b4 something is gonna happen, somehow i will be given some sort of feeling regarding that. Maybe for this instance i m sure it gonna happen, but just a matter of time that it will occurs, which is why i had stop wat i might do during this period to prevent falling into it further.

In any case, though it might be a sad thing that pple change but im sure is good for everyone, for her & for me, at least she is better off now n happier. Anyway, im not mentioning about anyone in particular, of coruse not time machine cus she is already in great hands n happier. So is just blogging about my "8th" sense thats all. But those who know will know wat im referring to though, contradicting as it is i guess, thats just life....

She once told me i nv appreciate what she had done for me, dnt wish to comment much more just only can say, i m realyl thankful for her during the period when i needed someone to be there. Thanks again!!! Things just arent the same anymore, the moment u switches job, tats the talltale sign about the forecomng changes. Fortunately im well aware of it before im been hitted head on....

I m in no position to stop or prevent now, maybe is till i lost it then i might just feel something but again i have no right on anything. So ya... thats all i can comment on....

Cya!!!

Feedback!!!

2007-03-22T11:27:00.000+08:00

Is really good to have feedback, regardless that it is good or bad. Just tat good things are easier to digest wheareas bad things need more time to do some sort of reflection.

The reason why this came upon me today is because my groupmate sort of told me about how she really feels about me as a friend. She was like telling me about the fact that i asked her a question during the night b4 MAB test. So she was saying im asking a question that is of no relevance and wont be tested. But i m really confused at that point wats that term really is. The question i asked was "Wat is a machine hour? Is it Really overhead?" Therefore she just felt that im like deliberately "testing" her or just asking non-sensical question. And i was like trying to explain my stand till a point i realised tats how pple gonna perceive u as, so tats no way i could change that impression, i can only blame on myself to talk crap all the time.

Frankly speaking, i really dnt know that answer thats why im trying to ask. Knowing the fact that the question wont be out but at times is the understanding tat matters. Though i dnt really understand alot on the concept, im like only die die memorising the facts there. So i will asked silly things and crap alot but im really a simple person that just talk craps and many occasions. I wont like test pple or purposely go and affect someone. Im not tat evil person loh....!! SOB :<

Anyway, thats ok la, i will learn that i should curb my self from asknig too much question next time hahaha...

Btw that Hazel still laugh at my hair loh!! Thats my karma perhaps for laughing at her nice trend setting hair style a month back.

In any case, i just dnt care much on these things already!!! So i just too tired in things n really very tired..... Shall have another posting for any issue.... :P

"Hair Cut Day"

2007-03-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

Didnt really sleep well. Woke up like 11am after only like doze off at around 430am? So im like so tired n feeling sick today. Right now im like at work, picking up so much calls!! Just bored.

Today i went JB right after i woke up, to Holiday Plaza to cut my hair. So after cutting, i went to buy DVDs, then KFC meal & malaysia's Kfc is much better than Singapores'

Just very tired now, stil lgot 10 mins then i can go home already!! hahaha but by the time i reached home is gonna be like 11 also, yet to have my dinner shall not eat at this moment till tomorrow morning when in school!!

So today shall jsut keep it short. Is like nothing much, oh ya went to dental to do some filings!! So ex loh $58. This year dnt seem to be a good year as a beginning, had been like paying medical bills so much from the A&E bills to the specialist follow up til lthis Dental visitsssss...!!

TataZZZ ...Yawn....!!!

Life is just Destinated !!!

2007-03-21T02:09:00.000+08:00

Do u all know, today "was" like a day i felt so happy & despite so many exams coming up & assignment not done, i decided to give myself like a night off from stress. Perhaps that was why im in a joyous mood, all positive mindset & just happy. But was short live, really destinated to be shortlived.

However, i will still narrate my short lived joyous+Positive mood!!! After test i went lunch with my classmates when LilinG saw a cute guy and was like....... u all know!! when u c someone good looking how would 1 react, as for her, maybe u can add abit of imagination!! :P So this cute guy came out to be "Paul", my centre defender. Not bad, i can really rate him as a hunk, i believe he got wat it takes to be in the bachelor contestant.

Straight after lunch i went to a lab to try do my CL, but as expected, im surfing abit & chatting with my Singtel colle., classmates n khakis jioing me play mj(perhaps i should learn the art of rejection). Anyway, i agreed to play with them, setted at 730pm. So i stil lgot time, but by the time is like 4.30 n my nice dad came to fetch me home!!

So was intending to do CL but i held back and catch a show on my James Bond 007, indeed this version of 007 is kind of diff. from its ancestors. On the fact tat he is a human being & is not really a carssanova like the previous. The show indeed nv fail me, it reflect that guys just cant use their real feelings towards a r/s. Imagine 007 giving up his job for a r/s with her but turn out to be nothing but a scram!?! And tat was like he nv trusted anyone & any r/s just like me. Cus sincerely i dnt think i can handle 1 at the moment. I heard from pple tat had watched casino Royale, 007. Nothing really got a rating of > than 6 in a scale of 10. But i will give it a 8 at least. I learnt alot of their british language, & the humour from 007!! So wortrh buying DVD but i dnt encourage piracy though!!!

Anyway, after the movie about 8 plus walked to Civic Centre for my dinner @ Mac. So long nv eat loh, can only c pple eat while i m sitting there most of the time, so this time i let everyone c me eat(though no 1 notice, n i doubt they will even wan to c cus my eating sytle is kind turn off i guess) So after tat i walked back home with another Burger as the free item!!

Playing mahjong for 2 rounds.... there is only 1 formula for it, that is Horrible+terrible+ HoriTerGi ble = Vegetable!!! hai.... So the bottom line is i lost $260 tonight for jsut 2 rounds. The last time i played like quite awhile ago was like $100. So now i lost so much already....!!

When will i really learn my lesson?? Will i or will i not?? I always wanted to quit but i just somehow failed to do so. Maybe the day i play very small small with new bunch of frens, i will really quit. But hope i will recoup back b4 i "shou san"!!! I very long nv tasted a set of good cards. Today the girl cant self touch 5 tai 5 times!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i hit 1 time 5 tai for her!! So is like 5 * $105(of 4 person,therefore 1 person is $35 as the predetermine rate) so the Applied Amt is like $525. So in end she won $440 my fren n i lost $260(which is me) & $235 for him. Another guy won $50. So wat went wrong?? I really dnt know, i dnt think i made any mistake, cus i wasnt given a chance to make 1, base on the fact that i hardly "listen to card. B4 i can actually anticipate, she already self touch 5 tai or pple won tat round. The only time i hit 8bamboo given a choice to listen 5 or 8 bamboo but i just listen to 4 n 7 bamboo. Next turn guess wat?? I got 8bamboo which i just discarded, so or not i self touch 5tai. If u wanna find a mistake, tat would be the only 1.

Mahjong is like life, if im like luckier i would have self touch n things would be very very very different. So is a kind of reflection in life, but im certain Mahjong diuslike me!!! hahaha... Ok now not even some "classmates" dislike me, "non-living" things also!!! hahaha....

Im going Nuts... im going to trim my hair later at Holiday Plaza with Florence, i just hope she wouldn't talk about "time machine". Though i mostly wont be affected however i just so afraid to hear that she is with someone or things like tat. I will be happy yet sad, ok i shan't say anymore cus is jsut not healthy mentioning the past. Maybe like neighbour said, im sort of running but im sure im at the last lap of running trying hard n harder each day. Just dnt ever let me c the "time machine" and im glad enough!! Ok why am i mentioning it?? whahaha...

Btw, lyndon msn me tat night, asking for her birthday present!! whahah i think last yr her birthday things can last for another 2 yrs loh, dnt wish to elaborate further, but heard from her she broke up with her bf already hahaha.. how fragile is r/s!!! Nv get into 1 when u jsut cant find the right 1!! But i understand the feeling of emptiness n envious for some when u c 2 happily couples together... :) Im sure i a better lover for the 1 i love n vice versa when is time. Cus i learnt alot thru time & time alone to reflect things. For example, when i m out alone walking in town area or sitting at cafe i will just observed the pple there, couples really catches my attention the most. Is like i will observe them n when time i just asked myself will i be tat good or will i be tat bad. Im not a perfect person, though an imperfect perfectionist, so i saw alot of my demerits from others which i hope i wil lnv show it out. Perhaps the 1 longest with me knew how wonderful i can be n how terrible i would be at times. Too bad life changes with time... everyone changes, for better or worst......

But my feeling i will nv change in the past, is stil lproven if tat person is the one. Cus i really have a strange theory on r/s, hahaha which shan't elaborate, cus self praise is no praise :X hahaha as my ex colle. form Singtel once told me tat. Think im like exceeding the words already!!! Too much things to write i guess with my mood to below 0 cus lost so much ma!! hahaha... hai.. tats just part of Non productive Transaction which is consider to be Individual transfer of funds tat is not in GDP measurement!! hahaha

K can some one get me a doctor!! im nuts!!!!!!!

Tired Weekend

2007-03-17T19:09:00.000+08:00

By the time i reached home yesterday was like 3am, had to blow my hair dry b4 i can lay down on my bed, cus still gonna wake up early for my Com. Law class. Cant afford to miss any lesson for an average student.

So is like 711pm now, just bathe out from town. Was sitting at coffeebean Ngee Ann City, supposely to study but in the end i just seem to be a surveyor for Coffeebean, to observe their patrons. So couldn't take it anymore, so i jsut went to walk around, again like a wondering soul perhaps i was too tired.

When reached Causeway point went to play free game @ Time zone & look at pple how they "drained" their cash dry. Catching the Big catcher n the sweet jackpot machines. Im really tempted to play but eventually i curbed the urges & walked off. Tats when after 1 hr there looking. So tats how i wasted my day!!! haha...

So hope tonight i will be able to at least read more on Acct. n go for soccer tomorrow. Anyway, shall only read up after my dinnner( * tats provided im not tired n bored) But surely after MAN UNITED match!!

Shall end here ba... last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERNEST!!!!

Wasteful day

2007-03-16T12:52:00.000+08:00

Fristly, i should reply to the person "." Yes my tagboard is having problem again, must be their website having problem, cus i had done a check with my frens, where he is too facing problem. Anyway, thanks, tat u take the effort to reply thru "comment". extravagant?? U mean in spending or which area? or referring to Self pity? Maybe lately just too much things in mind & yet to settle or things. perhaps, maybe that's just an excuse, but positive advise should take to improve oneself.!!! Thanks anyway!! But i somehow got a feeling who r u but shjall not mention name :) take care!!

Was trying to read up my notes for acct. at mac just now, but realised i cant made it and again im like too stressed up till i went to play some mahjong game then went home. Maybe later then try to study n wish i can get it.

I should keep my blog entry short, cus everyone was like saying why is my entry so long so like ah pek!! Indeed im ah pek leh!! haha...

I shall jsut try harder later!!! *cross finger*

I dnt understand why am i exist?!? Shouldnt i be extinct??

2007-03-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

I really doesn't know why i exist for. During Econ today, other than the ultimate screaming by our none other than "Coco de jelly hazeynutty" but is cus i go disturb her la!!! But really fun ma whahahaha...Anyway, just feel so dejected lately, tats y i just dnt feel my existence. Just hope now i can really chill out in so cozy place or in some where out there.Miss my time when after NS, when i was working at STM initially. Things were like wat i wanted, the only problem was i had to think wat i gonna be in future. Actually, i dnt intend to get married so i should be just some self sufficient kind of life style. But as a Virgo star sign, i really doubt my previously declaration.To be frank.... i really have something to share, i seriously very seriously feel there are alot of pple tat dnt seems to like me in my lectures. Or even use the word "hate" me. I jsut felt from bottom of my heart. Er.. especially "L" groupies n the Kunda eyecandy. I really dnt know the reason why but maybe im too noisy in class but i dnt remember the last time i actually "really" talk tat much during lectures. Just too many perhaps and possibilities, Yuping just liek telling me just ignore them since they r like dnt understand me and sort of things. True and i do agree, but at end of days others i jsut dnt care or bother at all... except ... but still shall be a past thought pretty soon.Anyway, some one jsut pissed me off so , ya.,.. is someone "sweet by name". Think i shall not bother anyone... just a big disappointment... So tats good, today onwards i jsut dnt need to care or bother about anything!!! WTF right!!! Watever.... like i care !!! ..... Really had enough of this bloody world full of hypocitessss, chi hong kias... n arsehole.... n unlucky chap. like me!!! thats all full stop...... I be lucky soon...!! Everything will change to better if u believe.... i get wat i want if i want to go pursue...

Diversity?

2007-03-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

Having such a big class can it be categorised as diversity?? There are of coruse positivities & negativities. The main problem is formation of cliques in the whole of lecture hall or maybe because im not approachable? But in any case the problem maybe lies during Orientation. ACcording to my observation, those tat eventually became cliques are those from the same "OG" grp & link to some others tat r more extrovert. But im glad to have found my group of cliques which is from my OG grp of course. Given my shyness n introvertness(which no 1 actually believes) i wouldn't had explore outside my cliques.

Anyway, i dnt really bother much cus is really fate tat bring us all to study in the same class n get to know each other. Fate & destiny is just like kurma & retribution, they are jsut complement of each other.

Tomorrow still got test, but im more worried for my Accounting on tuesday. Hai.... im just too slack over here. Without flexibility in thoughts is very hard to be good in accounting, just like computer programming.

When i first came online just now, ernest first thing was to asked why am i so bo leow. So i was like 200000000 question marksssss flowing out. So it was just some Kuku nathan been so childish. Though to many maybe at times i crack stupid n childish jokes but im jsut kidding @ all occasions which i know when to stop of course.

Ok 3 days ago, i was like so stress n im obviously like awalking zombie, tat after using the desposit machine over at civic centre i didnt retriveve my ATM card. But it was like yesterday while slacknig in library tat i notice how come tat slot is empty. Then did i call to report loss, fortunately yet unfortunately tat i dnt have much $$ inside tat anyone would be able to manipulate it.

1112pm now, guess too much in my mind. But seriously i really had reached the Law of diminishing Rule, my own saturated point of productivity. Yesterday, i jsut couldnt sleep with no productivity at all after watching "pledge It" by paris Hillton movie. Not tat much jsut alot nudity n talkiung about US colledge school life, all abt trying to be accepted n be the best. I dnt think is tat important right? Is about the question of been left out right? True enough no one would like to be left out neither do i but i think i quite used to been alone like going shop or even watched movie. But lately my life had stablizes alot, i dnt really drink alot and on diet but i had to take at least 2 meals if possible or not my saturated point will reached earlier.

But after the 5mins sit ups interval, my stomach is painful leh.... so didnt get to do today or yesrterday... im so weak!! hahaha shall try to sleep in awhile already hahahah 1127pm.

Lesson is the source of stress!!

2007-03-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

Hai... after each lesson i think 10 white hairs will "bleach" my blond hair!!! Hai.. .i think i can c more after MAB today... Especially when im encapsulate by pple tat does their accounts homework when i m only there to copy the answers.

I worked differently perhaps, im always unique but just tat naturally i still feel stress cus i just felt useless & lousy... Nothing worries more at this moment in time apart from my stress in the up & coming exams. I will try to do wat i can .....

Maybe i really need to find my contingency plan for wat if.......

Hai... just ji tou no mood today. Moreover, my diet is like making me even doudt should i dine at home. Right till now i only had fruits n 4 pieces of sushi(tuna inari) till now. And plentiful of coffee within me.... 1 can nescafe , 1 cafe galilee cappuchino & another cafe galiee Mocha Lattee...

And regret 1 thing in school... that is to let some pple know my "Secret"!!! hai...anyway it doesnt matter anymore cus is gonna be nothing very soon cus i got more impt things on hand....

Anyway, just like tat... perhaps u all can feel from the way im writing , im just totally stress out from exams!!! :(

Apple Day!!

2007-03-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

Today, at last i able to fulfill my aim... Thats to work out by playing soccer & went back home to like do 5 mins of sitsup... Then in order to not waste my efforts, i think i had to re start my devil style diet.

And i hope i wil lbe able to do so!!! So i will jiayou.... Tomorrow onwards fast food & western are no no to me. I try to eat soup base... n only 1 meal per day... the rest will be saleds with low fat thousand island and apples meal...

Ok is quite late shall try to sleep... sian didnt study tat much again!! hahahah

My Cds & Hi Fi set

2007-03-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

Was trying to focus on my studies, when im aware all my classmates were like doing their Law or at least started. As for me i started too, but starting to take out from my dump!!

Hai.... i think im like always empty saying only...

Ok back to current agenda, my cds & Hi fi set. Current agenda is mainly because i happened to pick 1 Korea Cd to listen in my room to just ease myself. Anyway, i think u all do share the same sentiment that certain items & especially song represent a certain stop in ur life or some memorable experiences. Anyone doesnt agree with me do share with me...

So this korean songs includes all the OST of 2004 to 2005 Korean Tv Series OST. When i c the cd cover, its just 1 of those item then seem to bring be back to think of the past. Not mentioning the contents of the cd. The music that flows out especially the OST from "Staircase to Heaven" & "Sassy Police woman " & "Yao tiao su nu" all these songs are like hologram, playing the "past" inside my mind. when the music stops, the hologram stops like a projector. Fortunately, it wasnt like the past. Where im totally been taken back to the past, just like Back to the Future trilogies.

Wow is playing the 9th track already & is 1 am already. Lately, i been blogging alot, not sure of wat reason too but maybe jsut got too much things flowing in my mind...

BTW im seriously need to take some pills to go on diet man!!1 Im getting fatter already... really tried to stop eating tat much.... Anyway, i just hope i will nv c the past again this life time... cus i not sure will i be automatically dragged back to my past... And i dnt wish to risk for that though most probably i wont...

During my trip to Korea last Nov, i forgot to mention, we been to many areas where they screen for their TV series. Eg: Winter Sonata where we need to take a boat across and on tat island is really nice n quiet, is like a walk in the park, i not sure i able to get any pictures from the Digital cam also. I shall try n post some for my frens to see :) Another place tat makes me suddenly remember is the last day at the Indoor Theme Park, it happen to be the screening of "Staircase to Heaven". Cus jsut heard the OST, which reminded me of tat. The most memorable was the Merry-Go-Round n the Ice Rig where the couples were enjoying in the movie as a couple n when the female lead went blind but stil lwent there during the closing stages.

I took the Merry-Go-Round, i hope i able to post it up soon. I remembered that day i stood there looking @ the merry-go-round and many things came flowing to my mind. I think TAT moment i just wish someone was there with me. I think i cant really stay in my room for long other than sleeping...

Anyway, memories are kept there already.... although i wish i can be like a computer, able to choose the memory i want and those =tat i wan to discard so i can be a better person somehow.... In any case, is all the past... she had moved on, and i will as well... Think is fair that i dnt ask too much from myself to not think at all. Is logical if i were to Occasionally & Accidentally think of the past.

So tomorrow wake up will be a better day!!!!

BTW "PROTEGE" got 2 versions do u all aware of it?? Now i tell u all!! I just realised the different when i watch!!! How ironic isn't it?!?

KAM BA TE

The Story of NORBIT

2007-03-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

Just went to watch Norbit....!! I just know after i watched it, i m just feel like blogging...!! Hahaha..... Im sure somewhere out there "Norbit" do exist & my heart goes out to them. Frankly, i dnt mind been like him if the end result would be the same, that's to find his soulmate

Some pple seach for their whole life for the special someone but nv able to find. Some are lucky, they need not need to go thru thick & thin to find tat person. Some are even worst, they gone thru so much but eventually they r just not meant to be. How sad.... but who can really tell tat person with u right now is tat special someone? Unless like watching movie, we able to watch everything as a whole, from there we will be able to tell.

Norbit, is a combination of comedy & romantic movie from my perception. Really thumbs up for the ending sequence, where they married back at the tree they "married" when they were like 10? So sweet right those type of scence? I know i sound so sissy but im a romance movie freak, maybe is because is my star sign & to fill up the imbalance part in me perhaps? Hahaha.... in any case, many years ago i told myself during the darkest of period that i cant just die 1 day without feeling the feeling of been in love. But today i realise though i had really tried madly in loved, im really addicted to been in love but jsut too bad love cant be found just like tat. It always hit us when we less notice or aware of it. When will Ms cupid be hitting on me??

In any case, my perception towards r/s had been real skeptical. Last time, maybe the good times when with some one i once loveD, i felt i was the best person in r/s. I felt no 1 else this world would be as good as me treating her. But do u all know, r/s is not about treating good or with excellance. Is more of a balance to it & compromising to things around the 2 persons, and to all couples tat might be out there having some rough time --->

1) " Remember always to remind urself to be contented with wat u have." While reminding urself, try to visualise the wonderful time n times when both u r going strong"
2) " Remember that a person with 1 hand can nv able to clap so it means, it takes two hands to clap and resolve things. "
3) "Nv give up on the r/s even if there is some kind of "cooling off", try ur best to do things to savage. "
4) " Another one is to remind urself, who u love constantly."

Still got few theraphies tat canhelp those cant make up their mind on was can be done, such as if suddenly in ur life u are tempted to move out of a long term r/s because of someone "better" or u just too much to think, there is ways to make u really think of things. So need adv can just drop me a comment with ya email or sort of then i c then i can reply :)

Ok i know there will be people saying why i so Kapo, but i just hope to help pple with problems in matter of r/s..... hahahahaha....

Not sure anyone heard of a movie by Keanu Reeeves called the "Sweet November"?? If anyone had watched b4, drop me a msg and tell me wat u think abt this movie. Personally, i think not alot movie can made me watched more than 1 time, this movie i had front front, back back, watched 4 times leow. Really those tat love romance movie should try to find this movie. Sadly, is out of stock, but i still got the VCD version, however, must be with my frens.

Everyday say will buck up buck up but today WHOLE DAY slacking, watching Movie, typing blog. Now i really looking forward for my last paper, but im afraid tats alot of stress n formation of white hairs....!! IS JUST STRESS!!!! Why cant Accounts exams asked us wats 10+2+5+2+7*30/0= ??, Or Marco economic instead of drawing the graphs, asked us to plot graph like given x & y axis, or why marketing principle be just doing observational research in MARKET instead?? What have i miss out?? Oh ya, Com. Law..... Speechless by now..... Seems so much not done, yet im slacking all the way.....

If im some rich man son i wont be so stressful already.... at least i have alot of things resolved. But im sure i m gonna be somebody in the future!!! (in IMH perhaps)!!! hahaha k k think im too lame... shall go slack some more!!! hahahhaah

Tired days... & Bored Sunday

2007-03-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

The time now is 240pm still not able to revise or do anything. Maybe just slack at home to watch DVDs, yet i felt so much guilt within me when im slacking. Although woke up at 830 to travel to Seranggoon North to training and work out abit, got home only awhile. Think im so tired from playing soccer and just dnt feel well after taking my pain killer for my tooth which i took for my hand!! hahaha...

So shall just go and slack after i buy my 4D!!!

C other days then i continue my blogging ba.. so tired, i shall add my sister multiply site hahaha..Only get to know her site today whahah

Gathering without "achievements"

2007-03-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

I remember i used to overheard from radio that for some people attending gathering can be a headache n sad event. Didnt really understand till i had experience it myself. It had the greatest effect perhaps when u the "odd" one out, such as everyone have positive changes as well as achievements but just u alone doesnt have much. It will jsut leave u ponder over questions like, "am i really that terrible? or "how come they had at least have a career, stable income or even an aim? & But wat really do i have now?"

Ok had to agree, is up to a person "San jing Xing" and their ambitious mind & heart. Which i believe wats im lacking, i may have fore sight on certain things but come to myself, i seem to be jsut passing each day by each day. Have the thought but without the relevant actions to match them. Perhaps im just lazy or wat??

Shall just summarised my gathering with my poly frens. Basically, only met up with 5 of our poly mates. They are Jacqueline( that looks like Celeste Chong), Connie, Jasper, Eugene & Ivan while the rest just couldn't make it. Jacqueline mostly will be getting married to her Bf of 5years soon, i asked her not to invite me but obviously she said she will be waiting to take my hongbao!! Hahaha... From my own point of view, i think she changes alot as compared to during poly days, after poly and yesterday. Of course these changes are norm to everyone as in changes to a positive way. Jasper been working full time and studying at Unisim as well, taking home a gross salery of $1800 as some kind of IT specialist. While Eugene is the one that has a vision n ambition, he said right now he just wishes to have a career as he is like me 25 years of age already and things like R/s can wait and sort of. Lastly, Ivan, was a surprise of the day for me, he looked so different, my first impression when he was talknig to my other classmates, i was like how come there is this businessman talking with my frens. Then i "examine" closely and realised it was Ivan, n oh my god, he looks like a businessman now!! Indeed, he just opened a cafe named "PASSION Cafe" along Enous Road towards ECP during CNY.

As for me, still a student after all these years, and really got no achievement to talk about or wat, the only thing was crapping rubbish when i talk. Though, i didnt mind that much, but i still feel tat i should really 1 day sit down and c wat i wan......i shall post their faces once i have the group photos...

Another part that i felt really like worse was a part where we suppose to take group photo, so they were like getting out their digital cam, so i just wanna use my K608i phone to take photo, the Jasper were like saying, edward pls.... is like telling me is embarrassing him!!hahaha... no la i wasnt angry at all i still go ahead to ask the waiter to take but sadly, the waiter said cant c clearly!!! whahaha.. so u know... just like tat...hahaha...

Photos of Winnings!!!

2007-03-07T01:37:00.000+08:00

Whahaha....!! As promised, this was the pic that i took after Wild wild wet with all my "winning"s of sweets n soft toy "Stitch" which costs us about $30!!!

However, the excitment was priceless though, lucky for us we jsut spent $30, i had seen pple just inserting coins like they were from the Mint!!!

Anyway, I try to upload some other pics to keep my blog dulless!!! haha..

Btw, hope this new layout is better n clearer, and hope pple who tag can kindly leave their name so i know who am i talking too!! Thanks Lots!!!

Whats the purpose of life?!?

2007-03-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

Exams is the next thing i heard after my last entry.....Oh god!!! How i hate exams lately.... !!! Maybe im old already, and exams really drain up my energy, cus everyday i need to worry whether have i studied enough or will i forget wat i had so call studied. During Poly years i wont have this issue, maybe because i studied in SP which equal to Sure pass to many....!! Whahahaha....!! Ok i know is not funnny :(

Anyway, i m still working till 12 am then take transport home. Since my nice manager request for more staff so i jus had to obey her since she's always allowing me to take Urgent leave & study leave etc. Im a very simple person, u r nice, i will treat u nice n even better but if my 8th Sense, senses any doubt in ur sincerity or u a very fake person, then i will be very skeptical about maintain the frenship. Since my night teams worknig buddies are all very nice especially my Team leaders, even i got morning class i will gladly obliged to stay longer to savage SErvice level!!! So remember to treat pple good wor, cus u nv know when u need something in return!!! ;)

Still got 1 hr to go, fortunately, then i go home also slacking there, shall not eat anything later, must resist eating, cus my Spare Tyre is comnig out man!! Damn!!! Must be due to my excess drinking , but now im too resisting to drink!!! No time to train or work out too hai...!! boring!!!

Unwell and Aimless Day

2007-03-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

Today, is just an aimless n tiring as well as unwell day. Another day of heavy school work without progress n understanding. When will i have a day where i will just not worry about anything? I reallynot sure why my PMS will just come in. The only way i think i can feel better is to follow my heart to do wat i desire, but unfortunately there are many things in life that we human cant control. Is the worst when 1 desire for something but they are not able to even get near it or to think of it, of course referring to a few things in life..... Just hate things that i cant control or within grasp.

One of the reason why im having some restlessness n PMS is due to my tooth pain, i guess tooth pain can be contagious to other tooth. Suppose to c polyclinic dental on Monday but because of assignment i had to postpone to wednesday if possible. Then friday stil lneed to c specialist again for my useless finger. Hai!!! And at same time there will be a gathering on Friday with my poly mates.

Tests are coming and exams are round corner,while my personal assignment is still intact!!! So wat the hell am i doing?? I really dont know, my life had been disoriented not lately but its been quite a while tat my life i feel something missing and lost.

Life is really stressful, and nv know how to treasure wats around them. For instance, when im working for 6mths at singtel, i felt studying was better. But when im studying like now, i hope it will passed with a blink. Of course, of all people, im sure i understand more than anyone in this world on how life works n wats the world is like.

My pms other than the tooth pain part, maybe somehowis contributed by a terrible nightmare i had 2 days ago. I dreamt of the present conbining with my past. Is just make my tears dropped while im sleeping. Somehow i know im still running away, yet at teh same time facing reality tat certain things once they r gone, they r gone, things will nv be the same again. Ok i shall not say or think so much, is just some niught mare, hope i will dream of more beautiful things soon :) maybe..... u guys nkow wat i wanna dream!!! hahaha....:P

Ok la, after eating panadol extra the pain has subsided n feeling much better already however, still got some unwell though. I sure another reason y i m feelnig unwell is due to OVERDOSE of Caffine.... I had drank 3 cans of NEscafe coffee b4, and instead of getting alert, it actually backfire on me, i was like "stoning" for the whole day.

Sometimes i jsut hope im be the next victim tat will sleep "soundly" n nv wake up. Hopfully by then i be in the dreamland already n nv wake up from the wonderful dream, with who ever i wan to be in the dream. haha though to be honest inside the enclosure(which is the dream), it be very scary.

In any case, im sure im very negative today. Im sure if i understand my lectures n completes all my exams, i wil lbe a happy person!!! haha...!!!

Time Is running out now.....

2007-03-05T18:15:00.000+08:00

Time is really running out and im still working here instead of doing revision or sort of things. But thats life if u aren't tat rich, where i need to work to "yang" singapore pools & myself. I heard of frens where their parents like pratically deposit $500 to there account like weekly or even when the parents like. So imagine how much will he/she get for the Chinese new year?? Of course, after 24yrs & 9mths living in this world, i had come to terms that comparison is a no-no kind of thing, if u wanna leave slightly happier.

I believe is retribution n wat anyone is enduring or in other words, how ur current life, be it good or bad is an accumulation of ur deeds in ur previous life. So we can only live, eat, enjoy, suffer & earn tat amt depending wat is already written in the "Book of Death".

Just dnt know wat more can i write, just that had a odd and scary nightmare yesterday. Slept quite early as i had indicated that i was so tired playing soccer in the day. So playing Winning Eleven 11, after i had edited the Man United team to be my own dream team. My dream team tat i had created in Winning Eleven 11 consists of big names like, Ronaldino, Eto, Shevcheko, Gerrard, Cech, Lampard, Owen, Beckham ,Messi,Henry, Rosicky Terry & forgot who leow. Anyway, play so many big name Man united still not playing well, however, i assume thats my issue and not theirs!!! haha..... I play like how i play on the pitch, just cheong the opponents. Is ok i think with more training i can bet i will get my form back as b4 on winning eleven 10.

Anyway, my tooth pain is killing me, only till Wednesday i got the time to c Dental @ polyclinic there. Fortunately, the pain is not really tat jia lat loh. Still bearable as long as i dnt take food tat is sensitive to my tooth, such as cold or hot or too sweet food. However, im always doing those things to my tooth cus i simply enjoy cold drinks and sweet food. Eat sweet food so hope i cna be sweeter ma but always fail to be a sweet person whahaha ... think no link righT??

Still got 45 mins then i can go home, so full now, just taken my dinner, Laksa again!!! 2 in a row, think all my soccer work out is down the drain, but my beer consumption is reducing which is 1 of those few things i try to change. Maybe next time clubbing shall psycho my frens to open bottle then i drink their Free flow soft drinks!!! whahaha so cheapo right!!! hahha im always a cheapo man!! haha... :P Cheapo = Cost saving hao bu hao!!!

Shall stop typing now already.... life is jus bored n sian loh. Yawn!!! haha.... Still got morning class and 30 mins to go to 10!!!!

Immediate Effectssssss!!!

2007-03-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Anyway, my sim team mates found this RP site that have our matches actions. So i managed to find this pic, which is my back facing the camera where they scored the controversial Penalty, saved twice with SIM team, this occasion i failed to save, and made a horrible mistake on the 4th goal but i have an excuse, because i chose to play even with a broken finger.

I only realised that next week i will be having 2 tests. Is really like operations in a business Environment, with immediate effect they will do this or tat. As for me, after i know there are 2 tests coming up, WITH IMMEDIATE EFFECT, my head pain leow!!!

Think im going to "ben gui" (breakdown) pretty soon. I really hope i can just pass all my modules, even if is just credit at least for my modules. I just cant seems to be focus like during poly years. Im sure the reason is because of my actions i had done in the past during the time i was with someone. When i think back at times, i guess im really too foolish n silly but wat done is done, is an experience that everyone will have to go thru. Just hope my brain will not deteriorate any further... Hope i will improve further. Of course i will try my best no matter wat.

So life is really like this, u need to be stressful n suffer though it depends how wats ur perception on that thing. I just cross my finger that i be able to withstand n be with my classmates till like 3 yrs without difficulties.....

Kao....!! Head so pain, shall stop blogging now already.... :(

End of Chinese New Year

2007-03-04T14:09:00.000+08:00

Today is the 15th day of CNY, which will mark the end of 2007 CNY. Then it be 350 days more to go b4 the next CNY. I wonder how will my life be by tat time? I had decided to reduce my Mahjong to none cus i had boycotted alot of khakis and im inplementing my policies now. So only special occasion then i will play i guess.

Thats not the point also for this entry, anyway, i dnt even know wats the point for this entry loh!!! Just that maybe i can say nothing much happen or no special feeling these days. On sat went down town to walk and was like applying Observational Research approach, just sitting at coffee bean instead of walking around till 7pm then went back for dinner and get ready for my Man U Vs Liverpool match. Man u dont deserve to win but of course im overjoy that they won!! I expect them to draw only. It was a great game in any case to c them win!!!

Now working and waiting to go home at 6 pm so i can eat steamboat. Woke up at 815 to play soccer and now im still stinky i guess, cus after soccer i straight away went to work. These days things still the same, stressfull n hopeless and just dnt know how to handle my school work. Is getting messy and stressful. The difficulty level is so high now......!! Just bored loh!!! Most of the work im not clear, especially MAB n MP n MAE n CL.... OH NO is basically all the modules!!!!!! whahahaha!!! Just sian loh man...

Still have to work and funds running low already.I think my bank got a hole loh, money inside will be gone slowly. The hole must be my ATM card loh!!! :(

Anyway, im counting down with 2 hrs more to knock off then i can rest, after soccer is like so tired loh...*Yawn* cus i had convert myself to become "Vidic" or "Canavaro". Which i had always been like them.!! whahaha.. im just aggressive, but my drawbacks are my stamina. I become tired very fast, but hor u all must understand i was a DEVOTED goalie b4 i m forced to change my position, after i broke my little finger!! hai...Is a good start for the last game b4 CNY that i played well as a left back & scored a goal and shortly after that, nearly scored another by hitting the post.

I always believe myself in soccer, too bad no game to play lately, cus my outside team is not really keen on playing tat competitive matches. Heard another broke up story, sad for the persons involved and hope everything will go well to my fren...It just display how fragile r/s can become.

Shall cross my finger about my life and jus hope everything wil lbe going according to plan.:)

Wild wild Wet!!!

2007-02-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

Wild Wild Wet is really WET but is not wild at all loh. I believe my fren & i were the first to enter and try out how wild is the place!!! Sadly, there are only 4 attractions that worth any adults to feel excited. It was a hot day and i forecast that it will sure rain later thats why we went earlier and also because i had to work in the evening....!!

So the once most exciting slide will be the one that we had to sit on the "nubmer 8" float and slide down is like viking like tat, but is a very short thrill, so u need to go on weekdays where there is lesser pple.

Basically, we were only inside for 1 hr and we felt bored, so is a kind of mouth of word that im sure Wild wild wet will just be extrinct like Fantasy Island. I nv been to fantasy island b4 though but im sure is something like tat.

So after the swim, we were like damn tired so we went to have our lunch at KFC, ate like hungry ghost like tat loh....After eating, we went to c the arcade area on the section where there are alot of soft toy catching machine and the big sweets pushing machine. After trying my luck on 2 machines, my fren told me that we should change our investment type. Which i strongly agree to it. So we switch our attention to this big sweet pushing machine, Since just 2 more category to reach Jackpot, we decided to invest 10 each to try. So the $20 didnt get us far, we only manage to clear 1 CAtegory, so eventually i fork out another $10 to reach Jackpot prize, which is a Middle size Stitch soft toy.

Fortunately, got the Jackpot for our last try. We certainly got alot of SWEETS!!!! More than wat i had at home, we split the "winningS" but i kept the soft toy as i invest slightly more and also i giving Candy that soft toy also ma....I took a pic of teh winnigs, i reach home i upload to this entry!!! hahaha

Now rushing home to slack hahah so tired!!!

PROTEGE!!!

2007-02-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

Firstly, protege was actually a word itself, rather than a word created for the movie. Just reached home after the movie at causeway point. When i saw the trailer while watching "Happy Birthday", i tell myself im sure i not buying Pirated DVD without watching in cinema first.

At last i watched it just now. Yesterday, Stanley and Michelle was asking everyone to watch it but eventually no one wanna watch it, so i jsut dnt wanna make the cinema so bright loh. Eventually as usual i watched it alone. This where it leads to my "feeling" or how i feel after a day alone.

Not sure i ever mention b4 in any entries, previously my perception on life was "we must get use to been alone as human spend most of the time alone." Therefore, we must really adapt to loneliness. B4 i fall in love to Elicia(1st 2 yrs of poly) , i had managed well enough on that, going out alone, watching moive alone, go walk down town alone all is part of my rountine, and i always will not feel sian or watsoever. Cus my beliefs was that, until with her then i slowly forgot about my belief and it should be the case or not it be very contradicting indeed.

So while i was watching movie just now, i suddenly recall and felt back the feelings i had during the 1st 2 yrs of poly. That i was suppose to adapt to been alone, not needing another company or require anyone in my life, totally independant. This was wat i realised im sort of missing, my coolness & calmness. I used to ignore wats happening around me, unless it relates me, currently i only adapted like 30% unknowingly. With awareness, im sure i can always remind myself of my beliefs. Dnt forget, im good at psychoing pple, especially myself so i feel better. So when sem. 1, Michael(OB lecturer) taught us about one of the characteristic of Leadership - "Self talk". I think i have that till like damn skillful leow loh!! Hahaha... i can also "self entertain" loh hao bu hao!!!

So im a leader in myself!!! Anyway, i shall really adapt back my beliefs and remind myself always. After the movie, while in the packed-lift, i realised no one pressed the floor 1 button, only floor 3 was pressed. As i was the first to enter, as manners i walked to the end so didnt bother to press my floor. So i asked someone to press for me b4 it reaches 3rd storey. Then i realised after the door closes at 3rd floor, almost 80% of the people are still inside with me!! So wat the hell are those pple there doing? Exiting at 1st storey yet dnt pressed the button!! Really makes me shake my head virgiously!!! hahahaha!!!

Anyway, should try to turn in, cus by time i really can sleep it be already 2am i guess, now is like 1241am.!!!

So to conclude, PROTEGE is worth even $9.50!!!

SOME SURPURISE & SHOCK!!!!

2007-02-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Really got a big shock, yet a wonderful surprised i had for my Day 4 of CNY!!! Of course, the way i phrase it, u all sure know is a good news!!

But i shan't announced it here and be a spoiler!! Of course i will ENDURE OF my TEASING when the time is RIPE!!! So whoever got a little feeling that im referring to YOU!!! Then BEWARE!!!! hahaha.. I m sure u are reading this now!! hahaha.... For now i will endure my teasing skill level, till i reached max then i 1 shot tease u!!!

So whole day 4 was at Lynn house, doing assignment but main purpose was to c that Kunda show off his ultimate, "mouse" luck to us!!! Play Blackjack can also win 100 over dollaers!!

k k my pc gonna hung le heheh shall post this for the 2 "chu jiao" hahahaha

Chinese New Year: Day 3 Updates

2007-02-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

Within my forecast, im just as bored as i had expected. Managed to dig out Westlife first album-"If I let you go". I recalled that this album was one of those during my secondary time which was popular. Many memories just seem to be flowing back to me. Day 3 just passed without anything exciting, but many memories following back, from cable & westlife album.

That album contain of many meaningful songs in it, such as "If i let u go, Swear it again & especially "fool again".

Chinese New year itself is bored for me, unlike most, they are usually busy going around "Bai nian". For me, as mentioned b4, just my grandma place.

If i got car, im sure i be at the beach walking around or go somewhere fishing, like my fav fishing pond in Yishun. Over at the pond, if i m not stress over no fish, i m sure is the best place for relaxation. The place is so kampong-style, actually is very deep inside yishun, no proper roads n wooden home, n filled with stray dogs. Known that place for many many years, can say since poly yr 1? Know the best time where u feel the best n most relaxed. Is actually during dawn(is morning right?) Anyway, to be exact, is between 600 to 700am, once i was there aroudn that time, i felt so relax and just nice.

Playing westlife songs now, wow... i just can be so sentimental and write more!!! Is only 2100hrs. Most probably got to meet my group members for discussion as we are quite far behind our MP assignment.

Was hoping for something b4 new year. Sadly, i wont hope for it le la, anyway wasn't referring to my ex issue. I believe i should be moving out from the loop, *crossfinger*. Wont deny the fact that i did miss occasionally but quickly i will re-route my mind away.

R/s issue i wont wanna bother so much, cus r/s really give me the creeps unless is Tat someone special able to move or touch me. N im willing to risk again hahahah... R/s to me now is like the stock market, is now a risk. After i learn how to calculate risk then i shall apply, anyway with my experiences im sure i already calculating.

Too bad.... this world is very eccentric, wat u wan, is usually wat u cant have. Wat u sometime dnt wan, is always wat u left with, again i m not mentioning about elicia or wat. Maybe is jus something else. If i ever talk about Elicia, i will mention her name, which i hope i can only just be her fren as she wanted too... but i will need few yrs... very soon i will just take drastic actions is im losing it. Wat i inferring was just something in pple mind perhaps.

Chinese New Year: Day 2 Updates

2007-02-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

To be exact, is CNY day 3 already. Day 1 night went to play Mj with philip's & gang, wasn't really a good game. Right from the beginning im already defencing myself, within 1st round i lost about 70, my "stock" dropped further down to 110 & 155 at a point. Is just shear bad luck, their cards luck are far superior than mine.

Fortunately, i was able to recoup some till end of 4 rounds which is 7 am in the morning already, which i foresee i will sacrifice my Day 2 of CNY.

Couldn't sleep at all on my few months old bed, as i had mentioned b4, i really have difficulties falling asleep, EVEN WHEN IM DEAD BEAT!!!

So eventually i hardly catch any sleep n went over to my grandmum place to "kai nian", just one of our traditions and practices over the years. After the meal then went home, went Stanley suggested to play MJ, despite knowing the fact i will lose, i still went ahead agreeing. Simply because, human always THOUGHT that they can indeed chg the fact or they are some kind of special beings. In reality, they r just humans just like anyone, so of course i lost about $42. Previous night lost about $16, went jesmine house with stanley & Jun hao after mahjong and supper. That neighbour of mine win all my allowance left, that i had to walk home loh!! (though is jus next block away) hehehe... So poor Jun hao & me lost both in Mahjong & Poker game, he lost must be i always complained i lsot $$ in MJ loh!! haha.... :P

So is like 123 am of Day 3, hate the feeling of lack of sleep, u will not be able to think properly n logically, not mentioning feeling extremely down, but lucky my frens were here today, rare guest at my place though. Anyway, i dnt feel tired now, just try to replenish my sleep tomorrow!!!

It be a bored day tomorrow, cus got nothing to do, no plans at home, so i just sleep and wait till wed go to Lynn's place for assignment then gamble with the rest when they arrive!! After that, it be stress daysssss coming back to haunt me!!!

But im sure this yr will be a good yr and is a great time for me to chg to a better self. N must really learn not to have too much hopes on things as well as the world is round..... & it just get rounder!!

Alot things are like this, the more u hope more, the more i wont get it for this case, i know the reason why, is just my retribution for been a bad boy lately, thats y i couldnt achieve wat i desire... but given my situation, im sure tats my "remedies" at that point of time....

In any case, is over already so another lesson is learning not to dwell on spilled milk. Instead should find ways to recover or compensate the spilled. ... im sure i will learn alot from myself this yr and every other yr.

So hope everyone been enjoying themself and get lots Hong bao

Wats wrong with my mood??

2007-02-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

Lately im just like a girl having those mood swing every month, only that i dnt get to have the cramp!! In any case, other than keep myself busy by playing MJ!!! Only during MJ can i not think of anything, which i dnt really know wat the hell am i thinking as well!!

I have a thought or opinion about myself lately. Remember i once mention i had lost interest n belief in r/s?!? I think i really lost it. In the past, i will still wanna fall in love and have the perservance to sort of "pursue" the r/s. Presently, i just give up even hopeful, tats pathethic!! Cus i didnt even wanna try, and b4 i even try i will just give up the thought. Maybe im jsut too shy le loh!! Eventually, it will still goes down to my phobia of r/s.... and im such a "Bei Dong" person.Means i will very seldom make my move on anyting, i just take it to fate. Is a bad approach giving the fact that girls always expect guys to make the move, show actions, but base to my own perception n experience, if u r really interested in a person, be it a guy or lady, it should be a 2 way thing. To simplify, 2 person wil lbe glad to have found each other, n will be excited to work things out. Actually that my perception towards r/s in the PAST!!

Basically, dark period will over and shiny, sunny day will shine above me soon!!1 Im waiting for my cinderalla!!! hahhahaa!!!

Eve's of New Yr Eve!!

2007-02-16T16:58:00.000+08:00

Yes, i went to meet up with Elicia to take my gift, it was a 750ML Wine with 3 glasses that she ordered from her supplier. I didnt get her anything. Anyway, was a quick meet up, straight after our dinner than i took the Bus 858 home, was a long trip home, enough for me to just think of my things.

Anyway, shan't emphasize much more on it, is getting tired and still tired.... Slept about 3am after some Mj session, should had kept it at 2 rounds, then it will end about 1230 already. But since they request to play a 3rd round and i couldn't resist the temptations, then in the end was a close call, cus 1 of the players won 380 like that from 2 self touch 5 tai which is $105 per self-touch.

So didnt manage to sleep well, and it had been many days already. Last time im able to just slep, but lately i really had difficulties falling aslep. So after a long day in school, dragged myself to work. Which why im able to type out my blog. Anyway, think im not really myself today in class, think those sitting around me would know the reason why. Especially, Ah Hao, im sure he knows how mad was i this morning and during "high tea" after our discussion at Nee Ann Poly. Jesmine my neighbour will also think im too talkative during MP lecture. Anyway, Happy Birthday neighbour!!!!

I think i will recompose myself loh, wont be so madly about wat i had told u all. Should just get over it and move on. Is just not fated......

Cant believe is CNY in less than 48 hrs, yet i dnt feel any excited, guess for my age it no longer excites me. Maybe...... u all know will excites me, and also $$$ will motivate me. Unlike before i will be so excited for CNY because i think i can just gamble anytime as i wanted so is like no longer excites me. Perhaps, 10yrs down the road i become a gamble addict, cross my finger that will nv happens!!

SO here i wishes everyone a Prosperous Chinese New Year and May our wishes and DESIRE come true!!!!!!!!

2007-02-15T16:07:00.000+08:00

These are my bubble gums that i had collected over many years back, if i m not wrong ever since Sec 1??

Then over the yrs i asked pple help me to buy till yr 2000. My mum had urged me long to throw them away. So after i threw them away, i told my mum, "hey, u come over, i give u a present" whahaha then she was glad that i threw them. (as it took up some space on the fridge) hahaha!!!

So these bubble gums perhaps tells a story, it took me 7 yrs to have the heart to throw them away!! It just simply reflect is time to move on.... although is tough but at least i will try, and each time i tried, i felt im getting nearer to my target. Now she says she got something for me. Just some gift for V day i perhaps and ask me to meet her at East side. Now at work place, now i c can take UL anot.... hahaha then c how le loh.

Valentine Day

2007-02-14T17:06:00.000+08:00

People had been asking me, "so have you found the Flower seller job?" I wish i could, but got no lobang. So eventually im here, picking calls. To me, is just another day, and is better to be at home or busy working for the singles to prevent them for feeling envious!! hahahaha

Anyway, life is just going on, and going on... Nothing will really change, im trying to just focus on my studies(if only i can). Today got no class but i dnt c anyone going to class though if really there is, in any case HOW I WISH there is!! whahaha so everyone cant enjoy their dates!!! *Evil grin*

Is wat a chinese saying says "chi bu dao pu tao sour, say pu tao sour" !! whahaha... Got a fren, who finally found out one of the girl in our class on her blog n frenster. Kind of fun, to read up her info and realised she's staying just across causeway point, i feel like a stalker suddenly!!! Anyway, in her blog, she already has a stalker who name himself as "L" (im assuming is a guy, cus some guys are just CHI HONG), cant blame "L" as the girl was one of the peagant girl during our Bash @ DXO last yr.

My classmates was like asking me to stop blogging negative things, i will try to next time round, perhaps this entry is kind of balance right?? Oh nearly forgot to blog about the buffet @ suki yaki located at Cineleisure that i had with 6 others. Photos maybe u all can visit ernest blog loh for the pic!!! Really had fun dining with them and also the table hockey game with Ernest at the arcade, played till i forgot my finger was injured till i felt some pain on it. Played Daytona with him as well, whahaha... also beat him using "automatic" hahhaa... ok la not proud just writing out what happened that day.

Btw among us, got a Jelly fish walking about, by this time im sure you guys would know who am i referring to already right?? Is none other than our Hazel aka hazelnutt aka coco-jelly. Maybe next time marigold need to get Trademark registration for the name "coco-jelly" loh!! hahaha ok is lame!!!

Anyway, is 852pm, just now received Elicia sms, was a short sms on wishes but i can c that she may took quite a bit of courage and surely alot of hesitation to send me tat sms, perhaps shes waiting for my sms first? Maybe i just think too much, in any case i replied her sms but no reply, can see that she is most probably on a hot date or just pissed with me for not smsing her or something. Hai.... shan't think about anything, just hope she had a great date like 365 days ago when she didnt came back with me waiting for her gift. I still remember clearly, tat day i called her, prior to tat we were already having terrible "cold war" maybe to have a clearer pic to the extend of our quarrel, is a "freezing war" instead of "cold war". I took the courage to call her, only to hear her outside having dinner or some fun(noisy at back ground), anyway i think she told me shes with her fren having dinner, hahaha... hai.. sad to recall all these, imagine how i felt tat time......

Many times i know there is a reason why i didnt follow up on the day she chose to leave, as in i didnt stop her, but im sure nothing can stop her when she decided to. However, im sure during that dark period i was struggling as well to stand back up. Now i cant really remember the reason why i didnt stop her from leaving.

About 20 mins i be off home and just enjoy my Beer!! haha....btw my belly is really getting more leow loh sian.... hahhaah!!! becoming 1 big "pack" leow.

Split Personality Edward!!!

2007-02-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

Worked till 10pm then went home, time machine called me and told me about her problems. Somehow advised her, was pretty sad to hear her problems, and my heart really go out to her. Cus i certainly had been thru tat period of time in life. So wat i had advised also advise already. PErhaps some dnt know who is time machine except 1 person im sure she knows who is she!!

Anyway, guess no one has the chance to have a formal introduction but time machine also known as elicia, who happen to be the girl who cus me to create this blog.!!! The girl happen to cus me more white hair each moment. So 98% of this blog "Saddness" were contributed by her, ok wat an introduction right? However, is not tat i had reconile with her, surely not. Is just tat i seems to not trying to escape from the problem but to face it face on. So if she msg me then i try to help her, if she mia then just be it, cus she's just no one else to me ma and is her life that she choose to live. I had done wat i can and nothing i can do, if i persists more, i will just lose my ego and my principle. As i dnt believe in been so persistence in things, especially towards r/s. Ultimately, if a person is interested there is a need to persist and is a 2 way kind of thing, where tat other party will also be dieing to be with ya....

Lately, i just lost totally my belief in love n r/s. I think i just lose it completely, Many yrs ago, if u asked me, "is there forever in r/s or love?" I would say, it depends if u have meet the correct person. But .... i will hesitate on the reply now, perhaps i know it dnt really exist, maybe during my parents time, yes. For this current society, i had really seen alot of things, read alot and still seen alot. My own conclusion is, pple cant resist the temptation of lust, new "love" and cute guys/girls, maybe i have some perception errors here.

So i had find new values in life, used to put all my attention and beliefs and values in love, thats why my love one will be the luckiest on the plenty!!! Perhaps all these will changed le, cus now a new perception had formed, tat is cant treat a girl or person too good, cus as human nature, they will abused it. Since im an extreme animal, as in i cant seen to apply equilibrium or lowering excess demand and rising excess supply to reach equilibrium. So im always on the excess supply part. So since been nice will die, dnt nice will also die, might as well dnt start anything right? hehehe...

Anyway, to me r/s is also linked to $$ is like the non determinants of Law of supply or Law of Demand. It will shift the curve, and the graph is no longer between price against supply/demand but is age grp against supply/demand in relation to $$, the analogy is that as 1 grows mature, the r/s is more dependant on 1s financial status, as this cus by greater standard of living. Eg, Elicia once complain recently, she claimed last time why we only get to eat fast food or our fav. chicken rice, murtabak, chicken chop @ Blk 515??? All t at i dnt dare to go and eat but now, i dnt mind trying, cus is really wake up timing towards not only time machine but towards r/s cum love....

Time will heal all wounds, including my poor finger...... All the best for the new year for everyone tat needs one.....

Just another dark period of my life!!!

2007-02-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

Composed this posting while i was on my way to work after seeing a specialist for my injured finger. Wasn't really a delighted visit as it was not filled with disappointment, as my finger will be like this permenantly.

At first the doctor was like suggesting 2 solutions for me, 1 been continuing to wear my "metal" finger or 2, to go for operation. So i was pretty concern on the cost, so i asked can i be subsidised by the MCYYS(under Army) he said could, then he quickly went to check the records, seems like trying to find ways not to operate on me. So he was quick to realise is been 5 weeks and not able to operate on it already. Although, it might be true on the fact, but shouldnt he be like more conpassionate about my situation and suggest something more effective? Reason been, for so many weeks im on tat bandage, my swelling still there and that my finger still cant really straighten.

So to conclude, problems are just endless flowing in human life. On the bright side, this time the problems are more towards myself instead of my past. Time machine did call me b4 the i went in to check on wat the doc says but nothing much though.

Anyway, think there are alot of things that i had to worry about, im strangling for my studies now hai!!! Btw i think my msn nick is kind of terrible righT? cus even Ms pinky msg to check wats wrong ? or she send wrongly? whahah cus she didnt reply my replies heheh!!

Anyway, shall stop blogging now. Just too bored now..

I'm Just so Tired about life.

2007-02-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

Basically this blog entry is to vent all my life unhappiness and problems over here, because i believe everyone has their own set of problems to handle and if really u not on the verge of killing urself u just try to handle ur own issues.

Certainly, i m not on the verge of taking my own life, but simply im mentally tired on my studies especially and of coruse my on going personal issues. I hope there will be a closure to my personal issues soon. Like my advisor told me, i cant be soft hearted anymore, im trying to be firm when pple insist her way of life. Im sorry on my firmness, is painful believe me.

Ok this entry is actually more on my school work, i have no idea wat the notes im writing for my MAB, im just simply copying from the lecture materials. I had lost my touch with my studies usually after each holidays, because im too slack. Now im back to school yet im yet to adapt to my school work. This semester i have an additional module, and trust me at this pt of time i had no confidence in any of the modules. Macro-econo im a very blur, law im messy, Marketing principle im blur+messy and MAB i know nuts about it....!! Hai.... Help help!!! !!! !!!

There are more important things that i had to worry other than my trival personal issues, is already so long already and im kind immune and numb.

Working now, so sian loh!!! hai...!!! !!!

WomEn are the strangest being in Men Perception

2007-02-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

Time really flies, is about a year since u officially walked out of my life. Last Valentine i will nv forget how i had prepared the gift for u but u were somewhere out there with ur "frens" as u claimed. Anyway, these few days things happened n managed to come clear with wat had been bothering me for such a long period. Is like 1/3 of the r/s duration, although not consider that long but is like years to me.

Last sat(3rd Feb) went to watch a movie by the name "Happy Birthday", starring Louis Koo & Liu Luo Ying. Is thumbs up for me, rating it 8.5 in a scale of 10. To be frank, i think is kind of personal that i rated such high rating. Reason been i feel like the movie is reflecting @ least 70% of wat im going through. Is really touching too but im sure in the whole cinema, im affected the most. Moreover, just happened that im msging the time machine on our own issues which just make the feeling worst.

Been contacting time machine via sms lately, trying to get clear wats her stand and things(though i all along knew it). So what she wanted was dnt want any committment and status, so my thought of a solution on this. I suggested that since she is not ready and doesn't want to commit, might as well i fulfill her. This is the only time i really think is better this way rather than keeping hold onto something that doesn't exist.

Back home now, continue to go online and slack like nobody business. Exams, assignments, Tests are coming yet im like dint make any notes or revise. All in my mind were the existing problems, my past and earning $$ cus i hate the feeling on been broke.

And lately found an advisor, is none other than my classmate Lynn!!! Whahha... I think she is mature and sensible, although she very fierce to me from her look!! Very Stern... i pity her children in future!! whahaha OPS...!!! But of coruse my groupie of frens are very nice, is fate that we were all in the same group in orientation. I do believe in fate..... & destiny, just like everyone is fate & destinated to die whahahah!!!

Im so drank !!1 Just kidding!!

Anyway, kind of check with Lynn, on wat i should do on my time machine, she just advised me like i thought also but thinking is one thing, while ability to do is another. When ever i had think thru things, 1 small little msg will just overrule evedything, just like the Court of appeal will overwirte all the courts decisions....

When she said i done nothing, but i think i had done jjus enough but wat she had done and in the first place she nv understand , she choose to leave on V day 2006!!! Forgot also le, u left quite a few times already but our love story can be written as an auto biolography? ? ?

My stand is very clear and simple, i had done really alot actions but u couldn't c only, now i have no securities and motivation to complete my master piece for u at all. And we not like just know each other and i req to chase u with actions so u know my heart, we had been together for 3 yrs plus and suddenly roughly think of, my actions are ample, i simply can think of 3 to Lynn for her to gauge.

Anyway, dnt wish to say over here wat are they, cus is like showing off. Hai... anyway, Lynn and Bf intend to brain wash me!! So hope u guys able CUS I have my own views whahah not easily influence by any others!! But i certainly apprecieate both ya effort heheheh!! :P

Shall end here got morning class later and im lack sleep lately!! hehehe

Ciao!!

Bangkok Rehab.

2007-02-01T14:16:00.000+08:00

Back from bangkok, kind of drag me off my initial problems of the time machine, actually i had already taken this MIA as a last straw. I should starts to seek my own intuition properly and not to deceive myself again. *Knock, Knock my empty head* & tell myself is time to wake up!!!

Maybe i wont treasure good things that is happening around me at the moment and shall regret in the future cause im currently "partially" blinded by my past. However, i hope i have the courage to be "heng xing" now. Is perhaps for the good of everyone, Me & you shall just be history. I will always remember the good & bad times that we had gone through, next time i maybe attached again but im sure these days i had became skeptical towards relationship. But u will always be a part of me. I hope i will nv bump into u in future cus i dnt wan to let u c my uncontrollable tears dropping. Is hard now but time will heal all wounds. I had been thru so only time will tell.

My MSN nick was like asking for voting that should i just block it off? Guess by now some will have the idea of wat im referring to. Anyway, i already set the deadline, maybe im still hoping for some things but i think tat the right way to do.

Anyway, the trip to Bangkok was really nice, having to shop till i spent exactly left with B$32 to pay for a hot milo on flight back. But i think i spent almost S$100 or slightly more for all my classmates gifts, including my family members. I bought a total of 12 tshirts, including Mon-Sun T-shirts and few others corny writing t-shirts. Few foot wears and rest spent on dinning as well as transports. Live like King, if my life is tat way back home, im sure life is worth living a couple of years more.

Shall end here, continue another blog entry once i reached office later. Cya my frens....

i m pissed

2007-01-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

I wrote the bloody nice blog entry is been DESTORYED!!! WTH..!!!!!! @#$#@%@$#%$#@%@#$#@$#$@%$#

Im relaly angry now!!!!!!!

First day of School!!!

2007-01-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today school starts, not really a very good day cus im very much poorer and very seriously lack of sleep!! Shan't emphasis wats the reason, cus just like the TIGER soccer commercial, "Real fans knows it" hahahha....

Anyway, enough of rubbish, shall put more focus on hows the 10 days of the new year!!! Frankly speaking, is not been the best of 10 days i had. Within a stretch of 3 days, i injured 6 fingers out of the 2 hands i had. My right hand tiny last finger got the worst out of it during an 1 to 1 situation. I did not went down, he went down, recover with the ball, i ran back to cover my position but he controls turned and shoot, went in of course. Tats was the moment then i realised my finger was suffering in pain but i stayed on for the team as im the guest player that day for my camp. Prior to the game, i already got 2 fingers injured but is recovering from concussions. This 1 to 1 situation injured 4 fingers, but the right hand tiny finger came off worst, and it swells even till now. The next day itself i went ahead to liling's birthday at sentosa with another "thumb" ?!? Anyway, eventually i played beach soccer and that ernest and shi wei still owe me 25 push ups, gonna knock them down together!!! hahaha.... Other than that i played volleyball with liling's group of babes. HAHAHA MS PINKY!!! Whahahha !! so lame man me....

Now is 1153 i manage to work today after lazing around, anyway went to JB and spent $50 for all the things i bought!! im so broke with my status turning to people's debtor.!!! hai....

Shall stops here... ok i think i owe my blog my resolution!! hahaha

A Brand New Year, A Brand New Edward Cho K S

2007-01-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

Hi, welcome everyone to the brand new year, and is gonna be a brand new start for everyone, at least for me, i going to try to improve on many areas in life pertaining to mine of course. Why i emphasis on mine? Reason been very simple, never try to change someone else cause it will never work. Never think that you have the power to influence someon thoughts and alter her behaviour, if you have these thoughts of thinking u are "so influential" i advise you to take up politicianship!!! Change that Percetion please, it will get you disappointment and pain only.

Fortunately, from the beginning based on my experiences i never intended once to think i want to change a person i know is a wrong approach, talking about a good start, i think a correct direction cum approach towards anything is essential.

So everything shall be a new start and now i dnt hope i can, but im sure if i want i can surely achieve things. For 24 years i had never seriously set my resolutions and goals. Make it the first time i set some. Maybe i wil lcome out with the list on the later part of this entry.

Lets now recap how i pass my new year eve. Practically, new year eve it self was not really in another kind of mood to go out, but had promised Arun one of my indian fren that we will just at least hang out in pubs or ktvs to slack there with some beer. Whaha...!!!

So we were at some pub with some kind of celebration then also got lucky draw, and we seems to be the only patrons, but we made a mistake to decide to watch the fire works. And it proof costly and is complete stupidity of me. I fill in the details just shortly.

Basically the story goes like this, we were out of the pub about 1130 at Tanjong Pagar. So we had to walk over to Raffles place, and my fren is slightly taller than me but he just walks so slowly, reason given by him is that he had injuries b4. But seriosuly Arun WATEVER!!!

So to accomodate to his speed by the time we reached Lau Pa Sa, we can help the fire works. So since im so near yet so far, i decided to make a dash for where people are heading. So i just run & run and as im approaching although i can c people strangling on the grass patches, i decide to ignore those talltale signs to try make it to the dry muds just a metre away. I think tat was the worst decision i made on the new year!!! Cause is not "dry" is moisture mud, which is an experience that for a split second i feel like shouting for help!!! Cause is like quick sand type of feeling, when i use alot of strength it only result in next step onto the mud to be deeper, in the end i give up i just remove my shoes and walk with my socks on at least it wont be like quick sand actually not really that i have a choice, is because by the time i moved a few steps, my shoes were already inside the mud, so are my hands!!! And thats the most stupidity incident that happened. So at the beginning was planning to save some $$ and take public transport but life is all destinated i guess i had to take a cab home but we walked all the way back to Tanjong Pagar to have our supper b4 we shared a cab home.

As usual actually right now im working fortunately these 2 days got lesser calls so i have the time to blog. Shall include my resolutions on my next entry.

When will mankind treasure what they possess?

2006-12-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

Today's topic, is like back to the oldest topic of human, "egg or chicken first"? Seriously, is either my IQ low or im lack of basic knowledge, i still cant answer that question. Hopefully, my niece and nephew didnt ask me this.

Then lets come back to today topic. Why cant human learn to treasure what they have and dwells on things that will never be happen.... WHY?!?

Reason is simple, people take things for granted, they always run away from things. Is like, only when the needle poke till you then u realise the pain. But why people must be this way?!? Still cant get it or is there any remedies to this problem? I think this is related to Socialogy studies and somehow might just affect marco economic as well??! Not sure is it related. School starting soon then after i excel in that module then i shall answer does that link up with this topic.

this blog entry was suppose to be days back. Now i post this then i compose another... ;)

Life is so much not same lately since......

2006-12-19T13:54:00.000+08:00

Guess my life now is just work work and work then school starting pretty soon, not yet get my time table. Once out i guess i need to make more arrangement for my schedules to accomodate my work, CCA and school.

Anyway, things seem so unfamiliar and strange, of course only me and perhaps some close fren/frens know the reason. Utimately, is me who knows the truth!!! hahahah So lame!! Frankly, i think i shan't bother bout anything. Will just earn as much $$ as possible but im jsut so disappointed in myself that till now i have no saving. Maybe, my account got a hole, everytime there is money, the money will slip off from the hole!! Haha!! The only thing im spending is my "donations" to Singapore Pools. Im going to have more self-discipline to buy less of those Numbers of mine, always never buy it come out. hahaha or kanna the number but diff. permutations.

Now i realise what is no life, haha.... everyday i will go for OT from 12 to 12 then go home play winning eleven, seldom dare to use my internet at home...so usually play till 3 plus then go to slep till 1030 then proceed to work. But is better this way i think, jsut worry that when school starts, my intuition tell me that i will have to forgo my work i think.

Things come and go jsut like people, maybe human should learn to accept the things that come and even if is great, like an ancient saying, "All great things will have its down fall". I still recall the first time this saying came to me, it was during the MAN United Trumiph that i realised if that saying is true, then for sure man u will lose the EPL title. True enough, they lost the title not the following year but even the other year. During that period it was Arsenal that took over the throne, thats why i dnt like them!!! hahhaah Prejudices i guess?!?

So the moral of the story is to raise awareness and acceptance for the fact that the saying do apply in the real world, in any instance.

Perhaps, my english is jsut too horrible that anyone would get my meaning attached to it!! hahaha but is ok, im trying to speak British English these days!! hahaha!!!

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Fortunately for me!!!

2006-12-07T19:16:00.000+08:00

On 6th Dec i got my results, wasn't something that great so aren't emphasis on the grades. Just that i managed to clear the 3 modules and move on to Sem. 2. Got to go for re-enrollment on next wednesday, not sure why SIM wants to have that policy as well. Must be some ways to ensure the student dont leave mid-way.

If only this results was for my 6th sem. then wouldn't it be great, i get my degree in no time and need not endure and suffer the "pain" of memorising and having exams stress!! Think im just trying to find the easy way out and escape from reality as usual.

Talking about escaping reality, guess im so good in it. However, im pretty sure 1 day it will be like a boombarang, turning back on me. Hai.... like i said b4, certain things aren't within our control and when we have no solution and even we have one we cant implement, is certainly living hell i think. Maybe pple who reads this will be blur but at least im pretty sure wat the hell im writing!!! hahahaha!!!

Perhaps, thats how life is. Anyway, this weekend is quite pack with activities, sat gonig for chalet and sun goingto east coast pinic and blading all that... long time nv go blading, not sure how will i fare, maybe i go rent 4 wheels bicycle better hor!!! hahaha sun got so many babes later i fall down pai seh sia!! hehe...

Anyway, my photos are ready!! After my dad took to develop, will try to put it out asap to my multiply website....

So sat shall c the car got any Music player so i can blast the speaker, anyway got soccer match on sat at Tanglin with SIM so just perfectly plan!!! hahaha!!!

PMS days lately,,,

2006-12-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

Pms is no longer a girl things i perhaps?!? Cause im suffering from the stupid little mood swingsss as well. Not really sure how i got it but just happened out of no where, when it happens just feel frustrated over things, can just be any little things. Eating chocolate definately aren't my style, usually when i have mood swing i just hope im away from this reality, this world. I will want to run as far and away from it. Maybe now i just feel like driving and blast my fav. music to just anywhere in singapore.... Had tried opening all the windows in a car i rented before and blasted the music, it was simply the best and relaxing feeling. It kind of smoothen oneself.

Just managed to "download" Kelly Clarkson, Because of you, is a wonderful song!!! Shall try to set it as my Multiply website default song. The lyrics are so meaningful!!!

Anyway, lately my life is just basically working from 12 to 12am since mon till tues(ok i know is only 2 days) Actually, this week suppose to work for all the days full shift but because this sat got to play a soccer match for SIM and sunday there is some events, therefore, had decided not to work for full shift for rest of the week.

IS tuesday now, 2 more days wil lbe my results release, lets cross my fingers that at least i will get a credit on the average. Then school going to resume pretty soon, another hectic life again, hope i dnt lose the motivation to study and work. Hate the feeling of having no purchasing power. Remember the time when i worked for 6 months with STM "permantently" as before i enroll into SIM. At least i can do wat i want since i have the $$ and can chill out with frens at pub and ktv to relax. Gone were the days at the moment, must wait till for quite a while b4 i m able to do i guess.

Is only 9pm now, so long more b4 i can go back home!! hahaha...

Many things actually flow thru my mind, just simply too many complex things that i have no control over that jsut over flooded. Hate to have things that is not within control, it simply make you lose control. I think very long since i drink, the last time i really drank quite a bit was when i was at Zouk with my sim buddies. Nothing happening but was fun enough with a group of frens that enjoy each other companies.

This Jan flying to Thailand for a short trip, it be fun i guess, too bad cant proceed to the fishing pond that catches super big fishes, as the guides never reply my request, guess because there is only 1 person for a day that is why they consider not profitable . But i just need some information like how to get there and im a independent angler!!! Anyway, beat it if they doesnt reply. Next time shall organise a trip for fishing only when i able to find people that shares the same passion as me!!!

Shall stop here i guess.....

很想说 - 李圣杰(Li Sheng Jie, Sam)

2006-12-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

This morning my fren suddenly msn me a u-tube link once i logged in, saying this songs go listen, it suits me, i was wondering wat was that, so it was a song by 李圣杰(Li Sheng Jie, Sam),
he is the new generation Qing Ge Wan Zhi loh. All his songs very setimental, jsut suitable for an emotional and sentiment guyl ike me perhaps?!?

Anyway, below is the song relics and my multiply site got the songs if i did upload properly ;)

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you are so beautiful
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
爱与美难道笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了真的很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
my love * 笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了真的很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了爱了
就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口不会走爱你会直到最后
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

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Last Day of the Tour

2006-12-01T12:03:00.001+08:00

Met up with "Park Jin Song" and the rest of EPL S.korean players at "Itaewon". We chill out at one of the HOFS(Beer Pub). Talk about how Ferguson and their life at English football. Not sure fortunate or unlucky to bump into Henry and Josh Mounrino together with Rooney. Cus it might as well meant Josh Mounrino might "psycho" both the great strikers to Stamford bridge !! Damn...!! Anyway, in the end Mounrino joined our table and of coruse maybe a way to shutted our mouth, he bought us all beers and even asked some kopreans babe to sit with us.

So after the night out with the stars, they dropped me off at Sofitel Ambassasdor Hotel few miles from the HOFS. Next day will be the last night out already. But couples hours later waking up again.

So next morning got to go to "Lotte" world but it was raining so lucky Lotte Theme park provide indoors, actually wat excitment can indoor rides fetch? So in the end just walk around the places and try to recall the famous korean TV series called the "Staircase to Heaven" it was constantly featured in that indoor amusement park. Like the Ice Rig and the indoors of the amusement park. ESPECIALLY the "Round ABout hourse" hahaha....

Was at there for 3 hours walking about and also walked their supermarket, it was big and compact, unlike the Carrefour or giant in local scene.

Of coruse after that went to some local shops for "tourists" to buy things related to S.korea, of couse this type of last min shopping was just a way of "chopping" tourists of spending the reminding Won currencies b4 they depart!!! I didnt buy of course, cus i had spent all my WON already and only my silly mum bought some seaweeds and her fav. bean pillows that she claims she get to slept well the previous 2 nights when the resorts provide and had problem sleeping once she reach downtown Seoul.

Finally, we had reached Seoul Airport, we checked in and trying to find things to have abite, i didnt really eat anything, just plain no appetite to eat.

During the flight, i was hoping that it be the diff. plane, so i can get to watch different movies. Luckily, it features a different sets of movies. So of all it feautured there was 3 movies(2 cartoons) that i had yet to watch. So this was how i spent my flight back.

I think i somehow have some phobia to taking flights i guess, felt very insecure when im up and especially in an event of turbulence. I can only blame it on too much exposure to movies like "Final Destination" and i happened to watch all the 3 series. Guess it do plays a part in my paranoid behaviour.

At a point the plane really shakes like a milk tea and when approaching Changi Airport. The plane was like filled with the sound of engine so loud and we ACTUALLY heard a loud thub sound, apparently from the wheel compartment i guess. For a second, my paranoidard get a better of me, that i thoguht we be the first to crash near on singapore water. In my mind, i had already the head lines on papers prepared.

God bless we are all safe and sound, or not i wont be able to even write this blog entry, if really were to die and i have choice i dnt mind to just die in my sleep. Is nothing new, it has already been the fifth case over a couple of months, and one of them is actually a fren of mine fren.

Ok is 1249 now, going to prepare for soccer match against nee ann poly later. After game still need to rush down to work til l12 am so is quite rush on the part to rush to work, but is ok. I love the game!! Everyone wish me luck that i will perform and at least no silly mistakes.!!

Tatazzz!!

Saturday, my 2nd last day at S.Korea

2006-11-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

Tonight is the 2nd last night before i leave for sg, today went to "Ever wonderland" is S.Korea Theme park, still not bad though, gives people a Disneyland feeling. From my glances, i managed to notice 4 most exciting rides, of coruse i took them all, and 1 additional rides for the "X-ride" coaster. Actually, everyone were entitled to only 1 ride but because my family members wont be taking them so i can have the liberty to take them all. However, becasue of time constraint, i didnt get to paly and also becasue i m tired i guess.

At first i had mixed feelings of taking them, but an incident just pissed me off so i just went off to take the rides hahahaha so eventually i took all the most exciting rides even viking the only ride i had phobia, NOT anymore after today becasue i want to go against my wishes and to face all my fearsssss!! Hahahaha like real!!!

Anyway, just reached Seoul apprantly, so was managed to find this place for my blogging and of coruse to find someone but hor end up that person too busy hahaha... beside the point i think my stupid pay not in i cant buy much things hai... damn... so ke lian, left only about 30000won which comes out to be around $50 SG dollars. Spends about 10000won. Too bad my 4 D all kanna eaten leow, hai... or not ask people remit me $$ hahaha...

Still got about 30mins b4 i gonna leave the cafe, maybe will walk down further b4 i go back to hotel, the rest were plain lazy and not sure wats wrong with dad suddenly, got PMS!!! hahhahaa... Now i know why i had PMS and mood swing at times, is all INHERITED !!!

So later i walk about it should be better than staying inside the room loh!!! Must treasure the time here the weather tat i prefered most. Apparently, Seoul aren't as cold as in the rural areas. Some partrons just open the window hahahasis damn cool man... even when i speaks there is smoke!! Didnt really took much pictures, the digital cams i had i used to take only scenaric pics.

Till now i can say the trip was not a bad one, is a smaall tour group of 14 of us on this 6 days package. So it bascially made up of 4 families, including us. Most of the time spent travelling around. Tomorrow will be the day we can shop already!!! hahah hope i can get the best of every penny to get most of things (Actually i doubt so, the things here are soooo damn ex loh!!1)

Shall end here le, shall continue to check tomorrow!! ;-)

- 5 Degree Celsius, my second night

2006-11-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

Right now is 932 Korea time, manage to find a cyber cafe and it cost about $1000 won for 20 mins!!! hahaha!!

So far although when there is wind im feeling damn cold and dry but i love the cooling weather is so shiok loh... Had visited the "Da Chang Jin" and an island that starring "Winter Sonata". The place was nice i guess and just that the locals aren't as friendly as we may think though.

Thats my second night, first night basically was suffering in the plane as i couldnt sleep even till now. So in ten mins time i shall go back to my hotel then eat some supper then try to sleep got to wake up early again tomorrow!!

Pactically with 60,000 Won u could buy much, a meal at Mac at the airport cause about 13300 for 4 of us and not mentioning not the complete meal!! Anyway, the things are ex and dnt expect much of a service from them. Imagine Mac doesnt even provide chili and a BBQ sauce u need to buy!!! hahah

Ok thats all for today and now... Cya

Changi Airport T 1

2006-11-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

Right now is 2135 waiting to embark onto the plane at 2230. Didnt really have the feelings i used to had whenever i m suppose to travel. I love the part to airport and b4 departing but strangely for this trip to korea i have no such feelings. Maybe i know the reason maybe i dnt at all. Any case this trip suppos to relax and just relaxed.

Soon after this trip im going to Thailand again during schol days hope i wont miss out much of the lesson. My eyes are killing me and my hair sucks to the core!!! Once on board i shall remove them. Yawn!!!

Anyway i got a new watch today hahaha as a gift for my trip to korea hahaha.... the design was simple yet equsite to me.

So i shall update my blog if possible if i ahave the chance to get access to the net. Everyone seems to be working and im like spending $$ im dead broke!!!

Shal end my blog here i guess... ;) Ahdios my frens!!!!

C ya soon!!!

神啊！救救我吧

2006-11-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

上帝会保佑我的爱情总会来的我在梦中一切都有可惜现实呀常常是相反的爱她的男人很多那我又算什么我在雨中喝着闷酒反正幸福呀对我是奢侈的心理太清楚了其实她不爱我奇怪地球上怎么会没有人看上我神啊救救我吧一把年纪了一个爱人都没有孤独是可怜的如果没爱过人生是黑白的神啊救救我吧一个人晃了半辈子了为什么我这样的男人哪就快要绝种她呢又在哪儿

"Hei Bai Dao"

2006-11-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

These few days my life is just mainly wake up, have my breakfast then go to work from 12pm, then after work my life is to try to watch my Dvds, watched the John Tucker day b4 yesterday, was kindda nice, and then watched the "Hei Bai Dao" yesterday, it was kind of affecting me in a way or another, not sure why but is like i had blend into the male role, "Zhang Jia Hui". He is an excellence actor from my point of view.

So more of this movie, is about betrayer by both "Hei" & "Bai" group of people. He is sent undercover by his superior after 8 years in Royal Police Force. And sent to undercover with a traid leader starring by Francis for 4 years and eventually he nag Francis when they are trying to make a run away however was stopped at gun point from the back by Zhang jia hui. This is how he got caught. And the movie goes on with mix of his undercover & back to police force scenes.

Once he is back as a police officer, he was not really accepted into the environment with suspicious looks from fellow team members and with 4 years working with triad, he dnt seems to be able to let go of his past as there is some kind of bond between them. And of course the boss that he had nagged was a good boss, he wasn't those typical bad boss, he show care and concern for his men.

Although he was betrayed by the undercover, he wasn't even resentful but asked his "brothers" to spare his life but eventually he committed suicide. Zhang jia hui himself was forced to be stereotyped by the police force and his frens avoided him in other words he was forced to a dead end.

Anyway, to conclude is just a very touching movie in a way or another i guess. Suddenly just no mood to write or do anything, feel like drinking today. Shall drink later i guess. Hai.... Life is really so bored man!!!

绝不放弃

2006-11-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

This is another classic song from Andy Lau, which i manage to find it over the web and place it as my blog music, is a sentimental song which means alot.

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听不清喝彩声音只有你的泪像海浪迥荡在我心里看身边茫茫人群究竟谁对我还有意义一直不能忘记我的勇气曾失落在这里如今我找回自己却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离我绝不放弃永远爱你时间空间挡不住不灭的情意你值得我用一生追寻我绝不放弃永远爱你现实命运推不动思念的坚定你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃一直不能忘记我的勇气曾失落在这里如今我找回自己却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离我绝不放弃永远爱你时间空间挡不住不灭的情意你值得我用一生追寻我绝不放弃永远爱你现实命运推不动思念的坚定你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃我绝不放弃永远爱你现实命运推不动思念的坚定你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃我绝不放弃我绝不放弃

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Just as i were saying!!

2006-11-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

Previous blog's entry were only saying that good things doesn't last. Just when i'm highly motivated to work my 7-11 shift of 12 hours till sunday, got a little set back i guess, it jsut make me question what the hell is wrong with the system in organisation. Shall vent my thoughtshere, once i leave this Singtel shall copy and paste to everyone and let all staff to know wat the hell is wrong with the management of singtel.

Today on 15th Nov 2006, got a hell of a scolding from Branch Manager from Hello@City link mall. On my side i should had contacted the Duty manager instead of the Branch manager but the correct channel should have to go thru my Team leader but i always go for efficiency rather than troubling another person. So as a result, im got a hell of a scolding and complain by her. Come on, all im trying to do was to check the availbility without going thru my supervisor, so that the customer can drop by asap without having to hold the case. My fault was mainly calling wrong number but i have kind intentions. Was pretty affected by it but i just had to keep psychoing myself not to be affected by these type of Manager, i can c she holds no leadership elements, as a good leader is people oriented. Anyway, i had already sent an email to my own supervisor to explain my stand, so it doesn't really matter. My conscious is clear, is wat's important.

Anyway, at last is 1124 is been 12 hours sitting here hahahah of there is lunch and a 15mins break. Yawn, no time even to pass the DVDs to the rest of the classmates, so sorry guys pls get to me which belongs to who's, thanks!!!

Again got lots of thoughts to be said but guess i cant really express it out as well now. This current blog song "绝不放弃" tells alot of things i perhaps? ? ?

Haha, life is short, today dnt know tomorrow things, lets take things slowly and move as much as possible.....!!! School starting soon righT?? hahaha....

How good can it be?

2006-11-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

Finally had my blog uploaded with music, if those who would understand english, they might realise is quite a sad song. Is very touching as well, especially if u were to c the MTV, you can even c the singer tearing away. Can c is from her real life experience, and that she had lost someone because she failed to treasure wat she had when is right infront of her and when she realised is lost, is too late.

Perhaps it happens to so much of r/s these days, is so saddening though. I can say the most fragile thing in this world aren't tangible things but are things that we cant control and sometimes "boom" it just happened. Like for example, u maybe so in love with someone but the next day u realised all the feelings are gone, u couldn't find it back. On the contrary, someone may treat u like a princess or prince but suddenly your calls and messages aren't answer or replied. Is a very saddening senario i guess. If u have nv experience that, then u are blessed. Hope u nv would in the future. hehehe....

At times i really dnt know wat the hell am i thinking. Doing rubbish and silly things hehehe... Anyway no mater wat life still has to go on,.. lets not dwells over spilled milk. These days life is so different hahhaa...

Now still got 2 hours to 1200 am then can go home, 12 hours later i will be sitting here again hahahaha Tomorrow will be worknig from 12 to 12 hopefully i have the energy wor!! hehe... yawn so sian and lazy as well as stressful over no $$ hehehe.....

Life is forever like this also... worry about this and tat. When u had settle one issue on the midst of resolving another issue came along, perhaps this is life. Boring if is always like this ... Yawn....

Shall stop at the moment i guess....

So many Fake'ies around!!

2006-11-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

Back to work jsut a few days, yesterday was feeling so sick and terrible, can even went out to AMK to buy my pork rib rice!! Hahaha.... But after eating still feeling terrible. Anyway, reached home and pop in 2 panadols, recovered since. Only manage to dozed off around 3 am.

Today woke up at around 130 pm from a call. Also good la, later sleep too much with be more tiring. Anyway now at woke, got to c a few fakers, cant really stand it. Of coruse i will keep mum about these pple and be as pretendious as they are. Perhap thats the only wy to deal with them, there is a chinese saying to deal with people like this, we must "Yi Ya Huan Ya".

Yawn, sometime life is jsut so bored!!! Work and study and work and study nothing much in particular. Why Maslow need hirerchy got 5 level? Then Alderfer's 3 level of needs? But i think right now im still at level 1, the basic need of Herzberg, Hygiene Need, i need $$$$$$$$$$$$

Whahahaha....

Guess im too bored already....

Life can be meaningless at times but just when u about to give up something spur u up!!

2006-11-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Life can be disappointing and despair at times, but life itself seems to have a life!! Just when u about to give in to it, suddenly there is something around the corner waiting for u. Maybe im still lucky to have those things around the corner for me to look out for, to spur me on. Or not i may just be those ending up on MRT track. I know Ernest will be the first to curse me even if i have gone to the other side!! Whahaha, cus he said it would delay his trip back and cus all the commuters inconvinence.

Rest assure, i wont do that, ernest!! Maybe other means that is less painful? Haha, back to wat realy spur me on. Im leaving Sg for a good 5 days, it could as well wake me up from ... er not pretty much know wat to be awoken from also. But after the 5 days when i m back to sg, wat else more is awaiting? Anything that can spur me up ? Is so much uncertainities in life, hate the insecurities attached to it. Why cant life just be like applicances, with warranties?

My tough luck still there i guess, after so long played my mj, still lost $55. Went pond fishing, that had to pay, and paid for around 52 dollars, but i caught a fish that cant be eaten cus is attach to a deity fish, something like tat, so i release at the back to the sea, caught a flower crab with my fishing hook that is suppose to catch fish!! Wat da helll!!! But at least the flower crab is tougher luck than me. Thought of releasing the crab back to the sea but the stubborn crab clamp onto my plier so as a result his/her's claw dropped, so the crab in the end left with all his/her's legs intact loh. In the end, i think it put on its self-destruction mode, it just didnt move and dies there.

Think i always write out of poi9nt i guess, hahaha wat im writing doesnt really seem to match with my topic!! hahha.. Anyway, i would be leaving sg to korea, in approximately 18days!!! Oh thats so long more but is ok, i m going to work more from tuesday onwards.

Btw i realised also that this world got alot of fakers!! Alot of chi hong kias as well, just cant stand chi hong kias, singtel itself i know of a bunch of er...2 fakers? and chi hong kias.... buaya kings... Then as for someone i dnt quite like cus i had seen the true colours of them, yesterday still played mj with her. Sometimes i dnt know wat am i doing also. But of coruse im a smart ass i know wat am i doing!! Anyway that B**ch is just so bit*h is just so "38", but these pple ren yuan very good de loh, know how to act but the utimate devil is still her. She's also a very good faker, she been back stabbering me as well also. One of the guy that nv seen me b4 actually ask her, "oh this is the edward u all been talking about" Come on, next time say pple bad things remember to cover ur ass even a slightest of hole to cover ur fart!!Even a retarded can c wat he impling as well. Is ok though, look at my face i dnt even give a second thought. Though i lost $55 again, but is ok cus the last time i played with her, i won $194, so cover back. Just wil ltry to resist playing with her. My gut instinct tells me "gina" is someone fishy as well but i shall close a eye or so....

Think im too free. Wrote so muych rubbish. Anyway going down sony ericsson to get my phone again. Im waiting to dispute soon....!!

The day i realised something i should have a decade ago!!

2006-11-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

Today, 01 Nov 2006 , at around 12.30pm, i realised something i should have many many years ago.... So today it marks an important day...

i realised a negative value cant be square root!!! Damn!! hahhaa It was only when im doing question 5 of my Business Statistic paper!! Hai, in the end i had no choice by just pressing the +/- sign and remove the - sign then square root. I knew either A B C calculations was incorrect but i had no time to redo and no space at all!! Hai.... Since i chose to do the structure questions first, i dnt want to jeopordize my MCQ!! And MCQs to me,the questinos are damn tough!! So forget it

Anyway just decided maybew going fishing pond to fish tomolo!! Hippe!!

Finally!!! Is all over but im afraid is just the beginning!!!

2006-11-01T18:30:00.000+08:00

Never knew university is so tough!! Guess i had to re-focus my mentality. I always choose to tell myself, im still in poly!! Cus im so much like a poly student, like a lao wan tong like tat!! :P. Maybe is the fact that the classmates that i know are much younger than me.

Finally, is the word i can use to describe my feeling!! Cus i can at last not stress over my exams and do be back like before exams, to go and do watever things my heart desire. As for this week, i shall go for my fishing at maybe reservoir!! Not sure where my neighbour gonna bring me, but wherever is safe i will go!!! I dnt even bother about the reserve warrant!! Come on bring it on if u can catch me!!!

Anyway, i have the time to blog this now. My life lately? Nothing much i guess, had been mugging for my exams and still attend the soccer matches held even during exams. The last 2 games was not bad though, i played twice full time keeper, was very delighted with my performance on the month ago match held at henderson secondary school. I guess we won 5 - 0?? I think so though... however, i did make some blunders but i manage to recoup my mistakes.

The latest game was terrible, we lost horribly by 7-2!! hai... the defence was a flop, of course the whole team took the blame, the coach must be laughing, cus this was a game co-organised among ourselves. Anyway, let he laugh!! Do i look like i care?? Im most worried about other things.

Shall hope i pass my OB and credit for both. BS was a flop as well... i didnt do any past year papers knowing everything would not be the same though. Ahya guess wasn't use to doing tutorial, during poly days only attended 3 sessions then i be off to not sure wat the hell im doing last time also, even right time now im like been possessed!! Hhahaha follow wat ever my hearts asked me to, guess im a slave to my soul and heart...!!

Now is time to plan when should i go back to work, to hear the customers complaining!! And practice my Art of Tai Chi again(Pushing here and there) !! hahaha

Maybe i should stop here first....... ;) Oh ya btw classmates remember to tell me when go class ok?? hahhaha cus i dnt know when(though u guys wouldn't have known as well) hahhaha , wat i m trying to get across is, remind each other if anyone happen to know!!

Hows my English?? I think i m trying to improve them!! (ignore punctuation and spelling pls!!)

Information overload!!

2006-10-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

Nothing seems to get into me...!! Information overload is one of the barriers to effective communication.

Less than 6 days and yet i had not done finished. Guess im finished!!!!

Whahaha...... Cant seems to remember anything.... Few days ago events can also forget. But 1 thing tat is good about is tat "e" doesnt really exist in my life. hehe...!! Hope nv to bump into my past. anyway i had promised nv say about my past and i will not....!!

The drawback is i have terrible memories since the past "conflicts" hhahaha... !!

Im trying hard for exams....!! hehe...

So stress man university life...!! Sian... think since primary school till now i will still be asking myself, "why are we studying?" For a better future? so we can work n work n still work?? then retirement at 55? But satistically proven average life span is till 55 and we are talking about average only!!

So maybe should adapt to live a day pass a day life... Today, dnt know wat will happen tomorrow, i have frens who everyday go pub and are girls and as young as 1985, u c tats call life, doing wat u wan n live to fullest. Im tryinmg to live tat type life, doing wat i wan but i still have alots of worries, so in the end, i jus managed to achieve doing most things my heart asked me to do.

Right now the only thing is i wan to travel n around the world and nv come back. ( but no $$) so how?? look for sponsor ship?? hhahaa... Must find sugar mummy already!! hahaha... Sugar mummy also better known as little white face!! haha..

Think damn lame loh...!! ACct. OB and Satis. Count myself lucky that im exempted from BC, or not i would had die by now...

Bai fa mo nu all white hair because she took too many exams. Mine soon i guess...!!

北极星的眼泪

2006-10-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

像断了线消失人海里面我的眼中已失去你的脸在等一回奢望流星会出现愿如果真的实现爱能不能永远明天或许来不及变但曾经走过的昨天越来越远北极星的眼泪说不出的想念原来我们活在两个世界北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼被淋湿的诺言淹没在心里面我抬头看着爱不见在等一回奢望流星会出现愿如果真的实现爱能不能永远明天或许来不及变但曾经走过的昨天越来越远北极星的眼泪说不出的想念原来我们活在两个世界北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼被淋湿的诺言淹没在心里面我抬头看着爱不见当对的人等不到对的时间就在放开双手的瞬间爱撕成两边北极星的眼泪说不出的想念原来我们活在两个世界北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼被淋湿的诺言淹没在心里面我抬头看着爱不见整个宇宙都流眼泪

"Dedication for Little Josh"

2006-10-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

On 2nd oct 2006 a little life was lost, nothing can be done. It happened so fast!!

Maybe the time is not correct, u be missed by both of us, we will always remember u, Josh.

Josh, good bye to you, hope you find a better place for you.....

Rhematistism??

2006-10-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

Think im suffering from rhematistism(maybe wrong spelling). Today my fingers are painful, at the joint area. Anyway, im on break now till 941, so take this time to write something. Exams are coming and yet i had not done anything except been gambling lately, when i didnt play soccer i would tends to bet on soccer!! Think im falling into a deadly hobby, but i guess the most i take out $200(which already lost $100 on yesterday matches) so today i come out with another $100. And if i fail to recoup the losses today, then bui bui to the bookie that i know. As in wont bet with him soccer again la, cause human are all "jian Gu tuo" only when they got burnt then regret about it.

For now, at least having awareness, we can still changed, If i able to recoup the first game i mostly wont bet on Man United. Hehehe.... Mahjong wise, those pple MIA already, most prob. abducted by aliens i guess?? Is ok i shall reduce on that too and c when got the time to revise!! haha...

Ah yo, my fingers so pain now hahaha.... must be raining lately!! Went malaysia for a hair cut to find back the same hairstlyist, but as expected, she no longer working there, so at a lost at a moment. Walk around in holiday plaza thinking whether to jus find another hairstylist or can always call that "e" to check out florance(my hairstylist)'s Mobile number. But in the end i remember the "look for new Cheese" cartoon. So i resisted the minimum of chance to even contact her. So i just went back to the saloon, in hope of getting some details of Florance. Of coruse, they wouldn't had told me anything. Is a total chance now the shop, not in the outlook but as in the hair stylists. Now all Yan dao working there!! So any girls need the shop address?

Fate really had its way to toy pple, we are like puppets to fate, cus just as my hair was trimmed, Florance came in, probably taking her belongings? So u know im the shy type, i didnt ask her nubmer so i could arranged my next hair cut with her, but at least i managed to get hold of the details of her new job location!!! Which i think is good enough. Happen to be in the same shopping mall, jsut a couple of shops away.

After trimming and colouring my hair, was hestitating on whether to go to eat hte famous Bak Gu Tek anot, mmm, in the end i took a cabbie to that shop to eat, i just follow my heart all the time ;) . Along way saw an accident involving a cab and a motorist. Thank god, he was fine but appeared to be in pain though.

So after that went back to City sqaure, thought of "smuggling" Love Wrecked DVD but sold out. Or maybe i pronounced wrongly. Ok i shall stop picking my calls and finished up my blogging. In the end didnt but much things and proceed home first, as at night meeting C, kiro, mark and "yang meh meh" (heard he's rich wor) for movie (robba-hood) and dinner for korean food.

After the movie was like about 1130 already, so took train back, guess around somerset station, a group of china men and many their frens most probably just finished their co. dinner boarded the train. Ok i know there is nothing wrong with tat, but the problem is, 1 china man kept vomitting in the cabin!! is purple in colour n the smell is like disgusting, and although i know is quite disgusting i kept looknig at it, in the end i really felt like puking, and not because i took out the chewing gum and smell i would be the next person vomitting and i had given all my tissues to his frens already. Bottomline is, if u drink u dnt drive, but dnt take MRT la, should at least take a cab or something la, worst of all, all of them alighted at yishun!! Could had shared among themself right? In the end, the whole door was like his puking and is purple maybe like ribena smell? Can u all visulise? better not!!

Ok is 1000pm, rushing home to watch soccer.... Half time and westham is still trailing...Damn!!

Anyone with alot luck can pass me some?

2006-10-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hai.... had been betting soccer lately, but keep losing!!! Hai... Chiong 1 more day, if still cant make it. Think i should just play small small but the problem is from my fren cant play like $10. So hope i can recoup some losses and let my fren intro an account on soccer betting so i can bet as little as $5?? hehehe hai... meantime west ham is losing... hai... is not very good sign man!! hai...

Free Paris buffet meal?

2006-09-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, someone say treat me to eat this buffet meal wor!! hahah not sure real anot wor!! hahahha... im waiting ahr!!! anyway, she always treat me eat also de!! so good hor :P ... Next time i strike 4D i treat u go oversea ok?? i give u a choice to go either West or East malaysia ahr!?? ok? u c im such a saint!! :P

Ahya strike 1st prize than say hor....!!

But the paris buffet really seems sumptous wor!! hahha yum yum

Btw must be that Jun Hao la, the anonymous that left the comment!!! Work can also blogger ma, who say cannot ahr? haha

" The time zone im in..."

2006-09-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

Time machine nearly took me away lately, but i managed to drag myself out of it!! *sigh*

Anywhere, hope it will break down!! I "killed" all the engineers who repaired it. Ok i think no one understand my language here!! but is ok, just venting them out!! Went eat Breeks with "c" with the vouncher but also end up dining about $32, suppose to be my treat but she paid using her credit card!! hahha, should had ordered something more ex!!! hahha Just kidding, i wont be so bad, the most go other posh res.!! :P Thanks for the dinner is sumptous!!

After dinner went for few games of pool, anywhere she was the only one i can win so of coruse play with her!! hahaha... After pool then rushed to work!! So was like worknig from 9 to 12am. Thought of playing Mj, surprising i didnt play for a week already. Hai, just too disappointed i guess, lost watever i gamble... :( sob sob, when will i able to recoup all my losses? Wow, it so hard with all teh Mj pros out there!! As for the soccer "investment" is a total mis judgement or basically Man U lousy!!!

Exams exams!! sian!! so damn sian!!! no mood to study at all!! haha... crossing my fingers!!!
another 8 mins to go to finish work!!

God bless me!!!

Rihanna -- Unfaithful

2006-09-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

Dedicate to the heartless people in this world, people who dnt know how to treasure who they have and those tat is unfaithful, these songs goes out to YOU!! :")

[Intro:] Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul Because it seems that wrong Really loves my company [Verse 1:] He's more than a man And this is more than love The reason that the sky is blue The clouds are rollin' in Because I'm gone again And to him I just can't be true [Bridge:] And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dyin' [Chorus:] I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be...a murderer [Verse 2:] I feel it in the air As I'm doin' my hair Preparing for another date A kiss upon my cheek As he reluctantly Asks if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hangin' with the girls A lie I DID'NT have to tell Because we both know Where I'm about to go And we know it very well [Bridge:] 'Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dyin' [Chorus:] I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside And I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be...a murderer Our love ... his trust I might as well take a gun And put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this...anymore Oooohhh...anymore [Chorus:] I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why And everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside And I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be...a murderer Oooohhh ...a murderer No no no Yeah yeah

Another day at work!!!

2006-09-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

Yawn!!! At least today i felt better working, but just kind of pissed with my school work. Accounts doesn't seems logical to me at all!! Maybe i should play more Mj to improve my Accounts?? hahahha Ops...!! I guess it doesn't seems to have any link on that comment.

Tomorrow got 2 birthdays to attend, not sure how, but got a feeling after the soccer match i would be beat man!! hai.. sob sob... and transport wise for adelene's birthday is kind of an issue, hahaha

Shall face it only i wake up tomorrow!! haha... yawn, so bored on a friday !!! Had to save money and for rainly days, anyway i realise everyday is rainy day for me!!

Bored!! still got 45 mins to go!! hahaha!!! yawn!!!

退后

2006-09-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由山上的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕觉醒的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是傻气你我的过去悲伤是真的忘记却让往后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给了承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手未必就好过最美的爱情回忆里待续天空灰的像哭过离开你以后并没有更自由山上的空气嗅出我们的距离一幕觉醒的结局像呼吸般无法停息抽屉泛黄的日记榨干了回忆那笑容是傻气你我的过去悲伤是真的忘记却让往后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后信誓旦旦给了承诺却被时间扑了空我知道我们都没有错只是放手未必就好过最美的爱情回忆里待续我知道我们都没有错只是放手未必就好过最美的爱情回忆里待续

"Zoo" Outing!!!

2006-09-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

U c how outcast am i!! the one wearing the diff. colour!!! Evidence clearly showing how unpopular am i!! hahaha!!!

Anyway, photo courtesy of Ernest, the handsome with the teeth displayed!!

Four of us from same Faculty!!

" Low Service Level "

2006-09-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

Lately, just had no mood to work, that leads to poor service level from me. So the time drags so slow as a result. Hahaha.... "c" will be back tomorrow from Thailand, haha.There having "war" still go!!! Have to sensor who she went too though, haha.... :x. Can imagine seeing a tanned "c" on sunday already hahaha!!!

Anyway, jsut so bored lately not sure why also. Yesterday went "zoo" hahaha, was fun with our group of frens, all was high long after the long island tea session, the vodka lime was like concentrated lime juice loh, so was like no kick, till long island tea, it was the actual long island tea i drank i guess, cus the last time the long island tea i drank was those sold at 7-11.

Writing this entry also very sian not sure why, maybe too many things to worry about in life, find my life lack of something and something is missing at the moment. Everything just amiss, guess is the normal procedures when u moved to another phrase in life.

Suddenly this sat got so many things, there is soccer match, 2 birthdays to attend, soccer wise i will be going but had lost my confidence already not sure why, maybe because i think ever since the coach bias that made me lost the faith in SIM team. Playing for Sandy's team is another case, im full of confidence maybe perhaps i know their team believe in me. But is ok, is the coach lost anyway, i m a good player and i know it myself. :P

Just bored, yawn..... if only if can leave sg for a moment that be great!! I dnt mind gonig to bangkok right now also!!! It be fun... !!!

Should organise an oversea trip for our group, that will be the best i guess!! even to malaysia also good!!

Shall stop blogging here, every calls irritates me now!! hahaha...

"Organisation Behaviour Application- Chapter 17: Changes"

2006-09-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

Today, lecture is the most productive lectures of all i guess. Is bascially because im able to put it into application not in a business context but more on personal life application.

Is time to adapt changes and to be prepared for it. Alot people dnt wish to accept cahnges because of insecurities about new environment, as well as not prepared at all. For me, i had all along prepared for it but just went into a stage of denial thats all. At least i should be "HAW" in the Who moved my cheese cartoon i watched today!! haha... To look for cheese and not to be like HAW's fren, rooted to his current position, which im quite in that position.

If people dont treasure you, we dnt realyl need to try so hard again. Cus i had said many times b4, it takes 2 hands to clap. I Keep thinking of completing the master piece, but today i took out from my bag and put on the shelf already, so i guess i will nv finish up my master piece. Means also i wont be able to show the final piece at my blog. Anyway is nothing much also.

Hope my time machine will nv return back and i will move forward and not rooted to the spot. Now i had to unroot myself first ;). Hhahaa..

Is only 10pm now!! hahah still got 2 hours more sob sob... Damn am i hungry now!! and later got MJ session as well haha... yawn.... ok is only 1043 pm hehe

Actually, right now got more important things at hand to be handled also. Such as my OB n Acct. n Satistics!! Damn didnt i jus mention all the modules im taking? hahahhaa...

Hai... no inspirtation to write further already... Hope i strike 4D then sure treat the SIM groupie to drinking session!! hahahah then over week end i will fly to somewhere in asia IF ONLY I STRIKE at least $2000 So wats the probabilities of AT least $2000?? Do we use left-tail, right tail or 2 tails?? How symmetrical would the distribution be if n=23? hahhaha Ok jus been super lame here!!

So many lame calls in today, like even a call relating to setting up Nokia's date/ time feature!! hehehe...

So good bye, shall blog again if i have the time...